James Pendergrass Femdom Fiction

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December 25, 2016

Hello.  Long time no talk.  Happy Holidays and here's to a great 2017.  Apologies to all non-Americans for the group of right-wing turds who have managed to weasel their way into power in America by deceiving our growing underclass into believing that intolerance and isolationism can be the answer to all their problems.  What a screw up of epic proportions.  Oh and if you voted for Trump, I don't think you're an idiot.  Hilary Clinton was no great shakes either.  

Although I have no serious writing projects in the pipeline, my creative gears have begun to turn again and I have been working on a series of vignettes, both Femdom and Maledom.  It's nothing I'm close to publishing but I could see myself plunging in.  I need to feel the buzz I have felt in the past, to feel as if I'm breaking new ground like I did when I wrote Teaching The Teacher, or See how she Runs (him), or Miss Amy - M.B.A.  The biggest challenge I face is the daunting reality faced by anyone who isn't making a living as a writer -- time.  The work that enables me to pay my bills has become more rigorous than ever.   As a result, the thing I'm most passionate about has had to take a back seat.  It's up to me to grab writing by the balls in 2017 and take that step forward I have been wanting to take for the past few years.  Nothing has ever been more rewarding to me professionally than writing a great story.  

To all the men out there, I hope you are forging meaningful connections in your personal relationships, finding women that understand and accept you, and keeping the self-destructive behavior in check.  To all the women, I hope you are benevolently wielding your power, effortlessly flaunting your beauty, and enjoying life on your own terms.  





May 4th, 2015

At last, my first update in 2015.  It's hard to believe I haven't posted anything this year.  I wish I had news of a project, but I haven't been afflicted by the writing bug in some time.

My focus lately has been on my family, my real job, and my efforts to find a companion.  I have become slightly more active on Fetlife, despite the many things about the site that irk me, so feel free to friend me on Fetlife, as I'm trying to get out there more socially. 

Many male sub-types can relate:  It's very challenging finding the right companion.  I have had short term relationships, but haven't found a deep connection since my last girlfriend.  The perils of on-line dating are very real.  One must have a thick skin and be prepared to deal with plenty of rejection.  I have come across some amazing levels of snobbery recently on Fetlife, but the fact is not everyone is going to like me and I have also met some genuine and kind people.  My ex girlfriend had an astute point that the nature of the internet and on-line dating has made it incredibly difficult to find a great relationship.  On the one hand, more people are more accessible than ever.  On the other hand, so many people take a grass-is-greener approach and refuse to get involved on a spiritual level with another person.  I suffer greatly from this and I'm trying to overcome it, to open myself up and find the right dominant Woman.   She is out there.

As far as the writing goes, I still think I have more that needs to be said.  I just have struggled to find the time and the motivation to dig into a serious, self-challenging work of self-expression.  Years ago I was in a writing class and this insane but bright woman accosted me and said great writing requires great suffering, or something to that affect.  I think she had a point.  I don't want to write another run-of-the-mill Femdom humiliation book.  I want my next project to be a step forward for me as a writer. 

Thanks for your patience.   Email me any time. 

December 9th, 2014

Hello!  To my legions of fans, I apologize for being away an extra long time.  It's been a doozy of a year and I have plenty of legitimate excuses for not writing, but the fact is I have a hideous case of writer's block.  It's possible I have gotten old and the testosterone is seeping away.  It's also possible I have simply run out of things to say.  I think I have written a million words of Femdom text, maybe more.  This obsession has taken me to some odd places in my life.  For the men who read my writing and my thoughts, you can probably identify with this.  We all struggle with self destructive behavior.  In some ways I wonder if it is the very nature of a submissive male.  I suppose it doesn't apply to all men, but for me personally, finding some true inner peace and rhythm has been a difficult and never-ending trial to date.  Although there are many wonderful Women in my life, I have yet to find the one that can conquer me the right way and I'm getting a tad long in tooth.

This has manifested itself in my writing, as I have started many stories and have been unable to see them through.  My imagination has been blunted in 2014, but it's just a year.  I recently found a Dom on line who has captured my imagination.  I have no intention of reaching out to her because I can't afford her, so I will write about her instead. 

In the meantime, I hope to check in soon.  Hope you are well.   Please email me to say hello.  I love a good chat with a stranger.


August 12th, 2014


Greetings. Hope you are enjoying your summer.  For me, life has been busier than ever.  They warned me this would happen when I grew up.  I continue to work on Corrective Actions but only sporadically.  If you have read any of my work you know I strive for a sense of realism.  Although I essentially write fantasy fiction, my goal has always been to present realistic scenarios and multi dimensional characters.  This can be a challenge because although my stories are varied, the destination tends to be the same place.  In the case of Corrective Actions, I'm making an extra earnest attempt to build a world that is authentic and, between that and my general busyness, the pace of this novel has been pedestrian.  If you have read down the page you will come to the realization that not all my projects reach a completed state. That said, I do think I will end up seeing this one through. It's just going to take time.  There's also the possibility that this will end up being my longest novel.  It's a softer type of Femdom - one built around love and mutual respect.  It's much closer in tone to Amelia's Awakening than it is to Finished Off.  Since I tend to fantasize more about the harsher form of Femdom (maybe one of you can explain this), it's an added factor since I will not write unless I feel inspired and horny. This is all a long-winded way of me explaining that Corrective Actions remains in the pipeline but I don't expect to publish until the end of the year if not later.  This could all change if I get the intense fever that can hit me from time to time so please keep in touch.  As always, emails are appreciated.  For fucks sake I get lonely and I'm guessing you do too. So let's communicate. 

In the meantime for those of you who are hopelessly turned on by great ballbusting videos as I am, The Mean Girls have been producing outstanding work recently.  They have  beautiful and talented young Females that take great pleasure in kicking nuts.  Of course if I could consult their producer, the videos would go from great to even greater.  But that rarely seems to happen.  Just remember that it's better to jerk off to videos like these than it is to actually allow one of these girls to wreck your genitals. So keep it in the fantasy realm. As for the poor bastards that actually do the suffering for our enjoyment, thank you. 


July 2nd, 2014

This strange year continues.  Correction to the below.  I am currently giving Candlepeen Balling away on bdsmlibrary.com.  Enjoy.   Other than that, I have a couple of exciting new projects in the pipeline.  One relates to slightly new avenue (you will have to remain in suspense for now) and the other is an exciting new novella that is beginning to take shape in my mind.  The novella is inspired by the artwork of Barb, arguably the greatest Femdom artist of all time.  I'm sure most of you reading this this are familiar with her work.  Barb's artwork is whimsical and thought-provoking.  She has a unique style that has been compared with Norman Rockwell's style, albeit with a slightly more sexually explicit subtext.  Her Female characters are wide-ranging.  There's no single type and there's a sense of realism in her work, even though some of the scenes themselves border on the outrageous.   Because Barb is so gifted at painting a mood, the scenes convey a fabulous sense of authenticity.  She really is quite a talent.   In any event, the novella I'm working on builds on my other work.  It's features a strong CFNM theme, with multiple Females and a single male "protagonist."  Unlike some of my recent work, which has focused on Women hell-bent on steamrolling the opposing gender, the focus on this one is around the establishment of Feminine authority for the greater good. There's a sense of justice being served in the form that my readers have been accustomed to.  For those convinced that our rehabilitative system could use some major rethinking, this novella might raise your eyebrows.  No, it doesn't take place in a prison or corrective institute.  It's a family story about justice being meted out in appropriate and highly effective fashion.  As always, the characters depicted in this novel are all of adult age.  Stay tuned for "Corrective Actions."  That's the working title, but I have a feeling it has been used in other less awesome Femdom stories, so I suspect the final version will have a more creative title.  Cheers - Enjoy the second half of 2014!




April 20th, 2014

It's been a wild year, mostly bad to be perfectly honest.  I haven't had time for my favorite subject but that is hopefully starting to change as we finally begin thawing out from a brutal winter and a cold spring.  I will be selling Candlepeen Balling on my Lulu home page as soon as I get around to publishing it.  Because it's a short story, it will be cheap.  I'm guessing $4.99.   That is all for now.


February 11th, 2014

Lots on my mind lately.  I have drafted a 9,000-word short story.  "Candlepeen Balling" is a fun ballbusting Femdom game invented by my Lady friend.  Of course wouldn't you know I ran with the concept and turned it into something a bit more formal, with a list of rules.  Then I wrote this short story about a group of young college Women who take control of a perverted professor and play this wonderful game with him.  It's been fun to write and I hope you enjoy it.  Who knows, maybe I have kicked off a new international pastime.  I'm dreaming big. 

In terms of the current landscape, I'm continually amazed at how unskilled most on-line dommes are when it comes to the art of verbal humiliation.  This lack of talent extends to some of the most popular sites on the internet.  I could single out a few big names, but I don't want to bring any unnecessary negative attention upon myself.  It's just amazing to me after all these years how few pro dommes have a true understanding of their craft.  Part of this no doubt relates to my own rigid constructs when it comes to Femdom.  But there is an unbelievable amount of junk out there.  As Femdom's popularity continues to grow, the market has become oversaturated with poor quality.  A couple of years ago I spent time on a project called "The Humiliatrix Handbook," which was intended to help young inexperienced Women who wish to make money as Female Dominants.  I soon realized however, that the vast majority of Female Dominants have no interest in my opinion as it relates to Femdom.  It's really a shame, as I think I could be the ultimate director of Femdom videos.  It's possible I may venture into these waters at some point, since I'm quite confident I could produce some incredible clips.  For now James Pendergrass Femdom Productions is on hold, but it's under consideration. 

January 30th, 2014
Whilst surfing porn the other day, I came across something interesting and thought-provoking.  The site Young-Goddess.com was for many years one of the better Femdom sites on the internet.  It featured beautiful Russian Women dressed in trendy, classy attire, dominating men in a variety of different settings.  The other day I clicked on the link to this site and came across something rather interesting.  As of 2011, the pay site has been closed down and in its place is a passionate and overly verbose anti-masturbation essay from the site's male founder.

If you have a few minutes it makes for interesting reading.  The founder asserts that for years he suffered as a chronic masturbator and it wasn't until he conquered this addiction that he was able to live the happy, fulfilling life he was meant to live.  I'm summarizing his views and I would suggest you read them yourself.  In general, I thought he made a number of interesting points.  I do think he takes his views too far and in doing so he comes across as an arrogant know-it-all, but I also feel as though porn addiction and masturbation addiction are very real problems that many men (and to a lesser extent Women) suffer from.  Like anything else, I believe it should be done in moderation.  But I don't agree with the base assumption that masturbation is bad.  That said, if it acts as a replacement for the type of intimacy required for a healthy relationship, as it does for millions of people, then it can be unhealthy.  Speaking as a man who has suffered from this sort of addiction in his life, I can say that there are times when it can be a good stress reliever.  Also, I believe regular ejaculations are necessary for a man to have a healthy, working set of cock and balls.  However, I also think anything that is kept in secret from one's partner is inherently destructive to the relationship.  For the first time in my life, I have a Woman who truly understands and accepts my fetishes.  She engages with me in a way that is healthy and makes me feel good.  Does this mean I don't masturbate anymore?  No, I still masturbate, but nowhere near as frequently as I once did.  Part of this relates to my advancing age and maturity levels (I'd like to think), but a part of it is that for the first time in my life the orgasms I am able to achieve with my partner are actually better than the orgasms I can achieve on my own.  Many will read that and laugh at the notion that it took me this long in my life to reach that stage.  But many people never get there.  Also, they say that lefties are late developers when it comes to sexuality and I definitely fit that mold.  The last thing I will say on the subject is that there are studies that prove that people who engage in sexual fetishes are mentally healthier than people who don't.  So my view is that one should embrace their fetishes and not view masturbating as evil or self-destructive, but to practice it in moderation and to find a partner who accepts you for who you are.  It's not an easy thing to find, so make sure you give more than you receive.  If you're naturally selfish like most people, including myself, then that is the greatest challenge. 



January 16th, 2014

Hi All,

I haven't posted in a while, so I wanted my legions of fans and admirers to know that I'm still alive and still actively writing and thinking about erotic Female Domination.  The libido is a wonderful thing and I'm thankful as another year ticks by that mine appears to be as functional as ever. 

My next project is up in the air.  In the past few months I have been working on a pair of sequels of the "Loving Femdom" varietal.  I currently have working drafts for Amelia's Arrival, and Another Letter from Shana.  Because of my generally indecisive nature, I have oscillated back and forth between the two projects.  Maybe neither one will be published.  I'm not really sure.  For a while now, I have wanted to do something a bit less trashy, something with a bit more plot development.  My Lady friend thinks I should write a novel about a cool, submissive Detective.  The idea intrigues me, but I haven't committed.  She also tells me I should write a little vignette about a Dog show, like Westminster, except the dogs be human males who are judged by Females. 

If anyone has any suggestions, I'm all ears.  In terms of sexual themes, I think I want to write something about sissification again.  This is a topic that I haven't delved in in quite some time.  My fixation with ballbusting has been such that other wrinkles on the Femdom fetish have been woefully neglected. 

What do you think I should write about?  If you have any great ideas, please let me know.  I can't promise I'll write it, but if I do you will certainly get a free copy.  Hope everyone has a great 2014.   



November 16th, 2013

At long last, I have completed Finished Off, my latest novella.  A word of warning:  The first section of this 27,500 word work of art is available free of charge on Literotica.com with a title of “Trashed.”  For that reason I am offering this on my Lulu.com page for the discount price of $7.95.  However, I should add that since I posted it to Literotica I have made numerous changes and updates to that section. 

Finished Off is written in the Female first person and is about the most perfect humiliatrix ever conceived.  For those of you who find yourself consistently disappointed by all the real life on-line Dominas, this book is for you.  Finished Off is a deep psychological dive into the ruthless, determined, unstoppable mind of a young humiliatrix who is hell-bent on the total violation of her male victims.  The novel features some of the best verbal humiliation I have penned thus far.  It contains some of the most explicit CEI scenes imaginable.  Other themes include CFNM, intense mental humiliation, human ashtray scenes, male sexual objectification, spanking, hard core ballbusting, and financial domination (“Findom”). 

As I have written before, I don’t believe a male should subject himself to Financial Domination in real life.  Paying a Findom is an addiction, as unhealthy as smoking, drinking, or doing drugs, in my opinion.  Therefore, why give all your money to some Woman who stridently doesn’t give a shit about you?  Most of the time she will leave you broke and disappointed and she will not be up to the standards of the Female character in my novel.

If you’re like me, you have often asked yourself the question, “Why am I like this?”  Why do I fantasize about being destroyed in every way imaginable by a beautiful woman?  Over the years, I have become more comfortable with the fact that I will never know the answer to that question and accepted myself for who I am, while also accepting that some things simply are inexplicable, due to our own intellectual limitations.  I do feel strongly that if you have wrestled with those sorts of questions then you will probably enjoy “Finished Off.”  It enables you to delve in this fantasy without losing all your money, or your physical health, or your dignity. 

Finished Off features exquisite details surrounding the blow-by-blow thought processes of a young, elite humiliatrix.  It is sure to excite and stimulate the reader’s imagination.  Please email me with questions or comments. 



October 31st, 2013

Happy Halloween everyone.  My latest novella "Finished Off" has been completed, but I continue to work on final edits.  I hope to publish it in the next week or two.  A full description will be posted here.  Thanks for your patience!

October 7th, 2013

Hello folks. It has been a while since I last updated.  I have been extremely busy with various non-Femdom projects.  For those of you who have been around for a few decades, I'm sure you know how life seems to get more and more complicated as you get older.  That all said, I am hoping to publish my newest novella by the end of this month.  The title of this novella, as I mentioned in my last posting, is called "Finished Off," and it's about a young, ruthless humiliatrix who destroys a male loser.  It's quite possible it is my last "ruthless Femdom" project, so I'm trying to make it quite special.  Written in the Female first person, it is a deep psychological exploration into the mind of a young, Female predator. 

I'm hoping for a more personal update in the coming weeks.  In the meantime, keep an eye out for Finished Off, which should be available in my e-bookstore around November 1st. 


August 19th, 2013

I am currently working on two very different types of Femdom Novels.  The first one, Amelia's Arrival, is going really well.  This is the Loving Femdom theme I have discussed in the past, which is the type of relationship I would advocate for those who want to experiment with their signficiant others.  For those of you who read Amelia's Awakening, you understand this is a more subtle, yet powerful form of Femdom Fiction.  The focus is more on mutual consent and acceptance of Female Superiority.  I believe this is the most realistic piece of work I have put out thus far.  There is more build-up and character development than a typical James Pendergrass novella, which isn't to say my other works feature no character development, but this one digs a bit deeper. 

Additionally, I continue to get sidetracked by the expansion of "A Day in the Life."  This features the opposite end of the Femdom spectrum, a world that depicts the ruthless destruction of a male by a totally ruthless Female.  The project is now titled, "Finished Off," and it delves into a fetish that I haven't focused on until recently -- the Human Ashtray fetish.  As you can imagine, the focus of this sort of fiction is on the complete degradation of the male to something less than human.  A lot of my readers find this to be highly erotic, as do I.  In that light, I find inspiring the filmings of Cybill Troy, a NYC based dominatrix.  She is by no means the protaganist of this work, as she is a bit over the top for my tastes, but I do confess to admiring her completely ruthless and no-nonsense style when it comes to her work.






July 29th, 2013

Good morning!  You may have noticed that my free story "A Day in the Life" is no longer available on my website.  Given how hard I have been working on this piece, I have decided to convert it into something lengthier.  To me, it has the potential to be the ultimate "ruthless humiliatrix" piece.  You can find an earlier version of the piece on Literotica.com.  The full version will be for sale on my Lulu.com site before the end of the summer.  This type of fiction will be appriciated by those with the particular fantasy that should always remain strictly a fantasy:  To be raped, sexually violated, and essentially destroyed by a young woman.  I often ask myself why I find this to be such an erotic notion, and I know I'm not alone. 

Was it nature or nurture that led me to this fantasy?  My inclination is to think that it's a combination of the two.  Those of you who can relate to this, or have other interesting thoughts, please don't hesitate to email them to me.  I enjoy discussing this topic with people out there.  And please don't be shy.  I always take comfort in the expression that "everyone is normal until you get to know them." 

Regardless, as I have said before, Women like Ms Nicola do exist out there.  They are predators and they are happy to take everything you have if you voluntarily hand it to them.  So bewhere and save your money for a more worthwhile cause.

I will have another update soon. 



July 3rd, 2013 

Those of you who have read my novels over the years know that I strive for realism when I write Femdom Fiction.  This is often a challenge because many of the scenarios I conjure up are at least somewhat unrealistic in the sense that we live in a free society and it is very difficult to force a man to do something against his own will. 

Some of my stories are about men who are blackmailed by Women and end up being forced to do something they don't want to do.  There's an erotic element to this because it implies that the male has been outsmarted and outmaneuvered by his Female counterpart.  I have done this with some success in prior novels, such as Teaching the Teacher, Melanie the Matchmaker, and A Fool and His Money.  These novels fall into the "be careful what you wish for" category of Femdom Fiction.  The male initially thinks he wants to be dominated but when faced with reality, he tries to get out of his situation but finds that he's in too deep and he must suffer and accept his comprehensive defeat.  Many a Femdom piece has been based on this theme.

In my most recent work, Amelia's Awakening, I have taken a different tact.  Ryan discovers that he loves to be humiliated and he willingly accepts Amelia's loving, nurturing domination.  To me, this is more realistic than "be careful what you wish for" Femdom Fiction.  However, as a writer I'm presented with a different sort of challenge:  If the male actively wants to be dominated and humiliated, doesn't it somehow defuse the erotic nature of the story because he is getting what he wants?  For me, the answer to this question is no.  The way I handle this problem is by using the ever-present emotion of shame.   Although Ryan wants to be dominated, his limits are consistently pushed by Amelia, such that he feels a genuine sense of shame.  Because it is recognized by Amelia and Ryan that She is superior, I have created a scenario where Amelia is effectively teaching Ryan to embrace the shame that he feels.  Is it a stretch?  That's for you to decide. 

I have begun work on Amelia's Arrival.  It features a reunion between Amelia and Ryan ten years after that fateful 48 hours when Amelia first establishes control.  I'm very excited about this novel because I think these are vivid, believable characters, who suffer the types of trials and tribulations that people can relate to.  Amelia's Arrival is a Femdom love story.  As always, the goal is to create vivid and intensely humiliating Female Domination scenarios that captivate the reader's imagination  Let's hope it all works out. 


May 28th, 2013

I just realized I haven't updated in some time.  Been busy slogging through life.  To be truthful, I haven't done much writing since publishing Amelia's Awakening.  I already have the basic plot sketched out for Amelia's Arrival, but I haven't had the urge to begin the project as of yet.  Don't worry, the drive is still there despite me having reached an age milestone :( - I'm actually looking forward to writing more about Amelia and her Cousin Ryan.  They are amongst my favorite characters. 

Oh yeah, about that consulting services link -- would you believe I have not had one single Women who email me seeking Femdom-related advice?  In the past, I have offered unsolicited advice to high profile dominas, most of whom have absolutely no interest in what I have to say.  Am I bitter about any of this?  No, not really.  I think it was probably their loss.  I may have submissive tendencies, but my male ego is firmly intact, perhaps now more than ever.  The moral of the story is that no matter how polite and respectful you are in writing, Dominant Women have no interest in being told how to be a better Domina.  It makes sense when you really think about it. :) 

Enjoy early summer if you live in the northern hemisphere!


April 5th, 2013 - Amelia's Awakening

I’m excited about Amelia’s Awakening.  I have put my heart into this one.  The nice thing about not being blazingly talented is that you know there are always things you could improve upon and I take solace in that fact as I enter my 5th decade of breathing aboard this bizarre, terrifying, magical planet.  My writing, along with a few other things, helps keep my spirits up.  I’m feeling really good about my new novel. 

Amelia Bergstrom was plucked from an Eastern European orphanage in the early 1970s at the age of three.  She grows up in an American family and struggles to connect with her peers throughout her childhood and teenage years.  Amelia soon blossoms into a highly intelligent and beautiful young woman, but her sexual development continues to be hindered by her distrust of all things male and a heightened self-protection instinct, likely caused by events she doesn’t remember.  Everything changes in January of 1989 when Amelia’s uncle (by adoption) and his family arrive for a weekend visit.  Amelia is reunited with her “Cousin” Ryan.  Ryan is a gentle giant who is secretly in love with his gorgeous, petite Cousin, but has never had any success with the opposite sex.  Amelia and Ryan, both 18 years old, share a mutual comfort with each other that neither has been able to achieve with anyone else.  After a chance event alters their perceptions of one another, Amelia establishes complete sexual control over her cousin.  In 48 unforgettable hours, the two naïve young adults discover wisdoms and truths that will forever change the course of their lives.

With Amelia Bergstrom, I believe I have created my most dynamic and fascinating Female character yet.  With her cousin, Ryan, I have created a sensitive, multi-faceted male character.   Although their relationship is thoroughly dominated by Amelia, it is based on mutual love and affection.  Amelia’s Awakening is to be Part One of my first Femdom Trilogy!  Indeed, there will be many plot twists as we follow these two characters down life’s unpredictable path.   Amelia’s Awakening is merely the beginning.  But oh what a beginning it is!

I intend to publish this novel on April 16th.  Please, if you have enjoyed my work in the past, I’m asking all my readers to purchase this novel on April 16th.  I have been told that such a tactic helps boost sales rankings and will give the novel better visibility.  Thanks and I hope you enjoy this novel.  It has been a joy to write.  

By the way, sorry for the font change.  I don't have the time or energy to wrestle with this shitty website page designer.  Personally I'd rather be doing just about anything else.  PS: Fuck Technology!





March 25, 2013 - Delays

For those of you who visit this site regularly, you may have noticed I am delaying release of Amelia's Awakening until April.  My apologies for the delay -- this one will definitely get published.  To be perfectly honest, I have been trying to find an agent to see if I can possibly interest a publisher.  Nowadays that is extremely difficult.  It's probably a pipe dream.  But I have this belief that there is a larger audience out there for my work, if I could only get some marketing and promotion muscle in my corner.  Thanks for your patience.

February 15, 2013 – The Fabulous Bakerman

If you were to ask me who my all-time favorite Femdom artist is, I would point to the elusive and mysterious Barbara O’Toole.  Many of you probably know that she has done some terrific illustrations over the years, featuring the CFNM theme, along with doctor/nurse – patient scenes and plenty of spanking, with some sissification mixed in for good measure.  Recently I found (“discovered” is too strong a word since he has been around since at least 2010) a brilliant and fascinating Femdom artist who rivals even the great Barb.

Bakerman’s art is so outstanding that he has introduced a new wrinkle in the Femdom fetish for me, which is no easy task given my lifelong passion for the genre.  The amazing thing about Bakerman is that his art isn’t even particularly explicit.  Oh it certainly features adult themes, but 99% of his art features no nudity, and no CFNM.  Yet, I adore his work and I find myself newly fascinated with “pieing,” a fetish I have never paid even the slightest attention to until now.

Yes, you read that correctly.  I’m fascinated with “pieing.”   Most of Bakerman’s focus is on beautiful Women humbling men by stuffing a pie in their face.  He also does some lovely scenes with men having their faces stuffed in mud, along with some foot fetish art as well.  Bakerman’s psychology centers around what I would term “rejection humiliation,” a situation familiar to any male who has fancied a beautiful Female.  There’s something erotically decisive about the degradation associated with getting this form of facial.   But only a special artist could make it transcendent.  What makes Bakerman so compelling is that he captures the physical beauty along with the carefree nature of the young dominant humiliatrix better than any artist I have ever seen.  Bakerman’s Women wear the coolest fashions.  They have the prettiest faces and the most fantastic curves.  My mind is already working on a future story utilizing the pieing theme.

As for my current writing, I’m thrilled to report that I’m making great progress with Amelia’s Awakening.  I’m already in the editing phase and I hope to publish Part One by the end of March. 

January 22, 2013 -

I am writing again and I feel like I'm on to something special. It has been a long time I have been this driven to tell a story.  Get ready for my next novel:  Amelia’s Awakening.

For those of you who have been following me for the past several years, you might recall that I used to claim I was the Greatest Femdom writer on the internet, etc, etc, ad nauseum. In time, thanks to an advice of a friend, I became more humble.  Well, the brash, arrogant James Pendergrass is back!  Some people, like Johnnie Cochran for example, are gifted lawyers.  Some people are gifted at brain surgery.  And some people are gifted at writing CFNM humiliation stories.  That would be me.  While I do have a day job, I consider Femdom writing to be an important part of my persona.  It's something I take extremely seriously and I am constantly striving to deliver a fictional experience that resonates with adult readers who are into this sort of fetish. 

I do feel as if this story I'm working on represents a step forward for me as a Femdom writer.  I'm digging deeper in this novel and producing something that is not only thought-provoking, but also will contain some of the most subtle (and sometimes not as subtle) erotic scenes imaginable.  I believe the two main characters I have created in this story will ring true to you. They are more nuanced and complex than some of my other characters. The story I'm writing contains some magic moments between the two of them.  I'm thrilled with some of the scenes I have written in the past week.  

As I stated in my prior post, my more recent work has featured vicious humiliatrixes draining pathetic male lackeys.  Amelia’s Awakening is much more nuanced.  The Female character is obviously superior, but the male character is genuine and laudable.  Also, this story takes place in the latter part of the 20th century. I haven't employed this device before and I'm finding it has opened some interesting doors for me.

I intend to serialize this work, and I think the first part of this story could be coming out in the next month or so. This is definitely something I'm excited about publishing.

January 16th, 2013

Great news!  I haven't caught the writers bug in some time, but lately I have begun working on a new novella.  Many of the details are to-be-determined, but I'm very excited to report that I have created a fascinating new Femdom character, as well as a interesting male foil.  The scene(s) I have been working on feel very inspired and realistic.  This work will represent for me a return to more "Loving Female Dominance," than most of my recent work.  Those of you that read my novels know that lately my focus has been on the ultra-mean, ultra-greedy humiliarix.  This new novella will focus on a much more positive and nuanced Female-led relationship.  But don't worry!  There's plenty of exciting humiliation and psychological Female Supremacy in these passages.  I will keep you posted, but things are progressing nicely. 

January 4th, 2013

Happy New Year.

Some of you are probably wondering where my new novella is. Apologies for not delivering on my 2012 promise. As I have mentioned in the past, plenty of my stories never make it to publication. I do a lot of starting and stopping. Sometimes I get going on a project and then I decide it's not good enough for me to sell. In this case, I could probably sell this novella. But I just don't feel the urgency to put it out there. For those of you who have read the short story titled, "Trashed" on Literotica, the novella is an extension of that piece of work. It features a couple of humiliatrixes teaming up to work over a couple of dudes. If you would like to read the novella, please email me privately and I will send you the document free of charge. You have my word that I don't share your email address with anyone.
My goal in my next novel is to work more on character development and write a story that is a bit more accessable to the mainstream reader. One thought I have been chewing on is to write a realistic, modern detective story featuring a male protaganist with submissive tendencies. Thoughts and emails are always appreciated. 

November 27th, 2012

I'm still not ready to publish "A Day in the Life."  Not sure when it will happen, but probably before the end of the year.  I have been preoccupied by other projects and haven't gotten around to the final edits. 

In the meantime, if you would like a nice preview of the novella and some new James Pendergrass material, I have been posting some short stories to Literotica.com.  Among my postings is a short vignette titled "Trashed," which contains a lengthy passage from "A Day in the Life."  It is not as explicit as "A Day in the Life," but still enjoyable for people who enjoy reading about young humiliatrixes.  In addition, I revamped "Blue Balls: A Love Story," and published that short story as well.  I hope you enjoy!

Let me say once again, as I always do, that all relationships should be based on love and affection.  Don't become attached to a woman that will treat you like a piece of garbage and empty your bank account.  It's okay to dabble around, I suppose, if you are in control, but it's an easy thing to lose control over.  Don't allow yourself to get truly fucked over by a domme who doesn't give two shits about you.  If anyone understands the fantasy, it's me, but keep it in the realm of fantasy. 

November 7th, 2012

I have been hit by one delay after another with regard to my new Novella.  But it is coming and it shouldn't be too long now.

In the meantime, a political moment:  I'm very proud of my country for electing President Obama to a second term.  These are incredibly challenging times for the country and the world and it will be difficult to accomplish things in this day and age.  That said, the country is much better off with President Obama, who is a good, competent man, rather than Mitt Croney, who would have been a complete disaster.  The last thing we need is a guy who panders to billionaires, gives them tax breaks, reduces regulation on Wall Street, ignores our environmental issues, nominates disgraceful conservative judges to the supreme court (to back up the current disgraces Clarence Thomas and Antonin Scalia among others), spends trillions we don't have on our military and starts wars to appease defense contractors.  Congratulations to the President and the people who supported him. 

October 9th, 2012

I have hit a slight delay with my latest Novella (see below).  But I fully expect to have it published by the end of October.  Full update coming soon! 


September 17th, 2012

Brief update:  I'm making great progress on "A Day In The Life."  The humiliatrix in this story might be the most vicious, sadistic character I have ever created.  I'm hoping to publish this in the next few weeks. 

My next update will be coming soon.  I have a few decent new links to share. 


August 28th, 2012

I want to talk about a couple of things today.  First off, my sex life.  Secondly, a shitty domme who is proof that you can have no game whatsoever and still sell plenty of clips on clips4sale.com.

First, my sex life.  I have been with the most wonderful girlfriend for almost a year now.  As I have gotten older (I'm almost 40), I have discovered that submissiveness is merely a fantasy for me and I have no interest in "lifestyle" femdom, or maledom for that matter.  Please understand that I pass no judgement on anyone who engages in these types of relationships in their personal lives as long as the relationship is rooted in love.  As for James X Pendergrass, I have discovered a loving relationship that is full of kink and roleplay, as well as great vanilla sex.  I do concede that it is tacky to share intimate details of one's sex life on line, but since I am mostly anonymous, I feel it is okay to share a few details.  My Lady and I like to play games from time to time.  I enjoy kneeling before her and untying her shoes when we arrive home together.  I enjoy being naked in front of her.  I enjoy it when she ties me to the bed and beats my ass.  I also enjoy when she rides me to orgasm.  Believe it or not, she is the first woman I have ever had who has been able to make me come this way.  Part of this has to do with my own comfort level, but it's mostly due to the fact that we have always connected beautifully and that she has taken the time to get to know me and the way my body reacts.  In terms of public stuff, perhaps the most brazen thing we have ever done is when she tied a shoelace to my penis and kept tugging on it while we were eating dinner.  That was loads of fun.  I recommend it, but don't get caught.  We have also discovered our exhibitionist side on a recent camping trip.  Who ever knew I would be into this sort of thing, but it greatly elevated the excitement level.  Conversely, she loves to be spanked and dominated in bed.  I love trash-talking her when we are making love and making her tell me how great it feels to get nailed.  You get the picture.  None of this makes us particularly unique, but what I love is the intimacy we share.  We are both deeply sexual and I think we both have this underlying fear that our promiscuity will get us in trouble at some point down the road.  This is a difficult balancing act and it will be interesting to see how we manage it, as our relationship continues to grow and evolve. 

Now I want to talk about one of the better selling dommes on Clips4Sale.com.  Her name is Bratty Jamie.  She recently has put out some cool humiliation videos, featuring a guy dressed in diapers who jacks off in front of her and generally makes an ass of himself.  The frustrating thing is that she is uncreative and doesn't seem to have a general grasp of what makes for humiliating dialogue.  I can only imagine how frustrating it was for this guy to listen to her blatherings.  Now it so happens that Bratty Jamie is a good-looking young woman, but she is so incompetent when it comes to verbal humiliation.  Please note, I shared these videos with my girlfriend and her first comment was, "She's terrible."  Bratty Jamie is not alone either.  There are thousands like her and many of them are making great money.  Submissive guys deserve better.  I often wish that I could start my own clips site and direct scenes with attractive, promising young women.  I have no doubts that this would become the greatest clips site in the history of humankind.  However, personal circumstances dictate that this is not an option for me.  And thus, subs must continue to sift through mediocre dommes and poorly constructed humiliation scenes in their efforts to find decent j/o material.  It is a difficult cross to bear. 



August 5th, 2012

I hope all is well with everyone. I have been busy working on a couple of projects. One is a selection of Maledom short stories, which will take some time to complete. The other is a Femdom short story titled, "A Day In The Life." It's about a young, beautiful humiliatrix who teams up with her friend to totally fuck over these two hapless losers. I haven't written much about the two-on-two dynamic and I have to say it has opened a few interesting avenues for me. The piece will be 12,000-15,000 words in length and I'm hoping to publish it at some point in September. I intend to bring this one to market for the insanely cheap price of $4.99.


Other than that, I would like to recommend an outstanding humiliatrix. Her name is Christina. I actually had the good fortune to session with this fine lady last summer and she is smart, blonde, petite, and absolutely merciless. She will gladly take all your money, though this is something I strongly advice my readers against pursuing. It's a nice fantasy, but in real life it pains me to come across guys that actually let humiliatrixes claim their financial livelihood. (This is probably ironic, since I love writing about this very fantasy). Either way, Christina is the shit. I would totally session with her again if she didn't live in the boondocks (there are other reasons as well but let's leave it at that). Here is her fascinating website. As you will see, she's quite versatile and seemingly has the ability to be sweet or vicious.



June 23rd, 2012

Hello, all.  Long time since I last checked in.  Life has been busy for me and I haven't had much time to write about my favorite subject.  I'm not currently working on any new e-books, but I have begun to formulate a fun short story. 

Having seen the wild success of 50 Shades Of Gray, the maledom novel that has sold millions of copies, I can't help but wonder if I may have had more success had I taken on a female pen name.  And while it's fairly obvious male-over-female domination is more popular in the mainstream, it's something I have written about in the past.  My girlfriend thinks I should build on the short story "Wide Open," which can be found in the short story collection "Ball Sprawl."  What do you think?   If any of you have read 50 Shades of Gray, I would appreciate your perspective on the novel.  I still haven't gotten around to reading it. 

For those of you that are new to my site, welcome.  You can find plenty of free work of mine on bdsmlibrary.com and smtales.com.  Look under James P. and/or James Pendergrass.  I also recommend you check out one of my
16 e-books for sale at lulu.com.  Most books cost in the $8-12 range, and I can assure you that if you enjoy femdom with a strong focus on verbal and psychological humiliation, you have come to the right place.  Read the descriptions of each novel and there's a good chance you'll find something that appeals to your personal tastes. 

For those of you who live in the northern hemisphere, enjoy the summer!

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At long last, 
"A Fool and His Money" is available at Lulu.com!

Apologies again for the delay, but I believe you'll find this eBook to be a worthy edition to my past works and possibly the most enjoyable one thus far.  The plot is a fun ride and the ending is absolutely wicked.  Here is a preview of "A Fool And His Money":

At 35 years of age, Joel Booker has it all. His domineering, know-it-all Dad just dropped dead and left Joel with 13 car dealerships and all the money he will ever need.  Drunk with power, Joel begins pushing around the employees that he feels don't respect him, especially certain female ones.  But lurking beneath Joel's arrogant, puffy experior is a very small "secret" that has prevented him from being the man he wishes he could be.   The years of frustration have taken their toll and Joel has evolved into a full scale male chauvinist with misogynistic tendencies.   Behind closed doors, he has strange, inexplicable masturbatory fantasies about the "weaker" gender - fantasies that have evolved into a full-fledged obsession.  When Joel's compulsion leads to skin problems, he soon requires an emergency visit to the doctor. With his regular male doctor on holiday, Joel is forced to disclose his shameful secrets to a female Japanese physician who sees right through his arrogance and begins to discover an inner feminine strength she always suspected was there. When Joel is rude to both the Doctor and a conniving young female receptionist, he soon discovers he has antagonized the wrong women.  The decisive events that follow will change Joel's life forever.

 

A Fool And His Money (fiction, 41,000 words) features my usual focus on female sexual domination of the male. This novel emphasizes clever and realistic verbal and psychological humiliation, with a focus on financial domination and small penis humiliation. I also explore new fetishes, while revisiting some of my favorite past-times -- spanking and ballbusting. This novel features adults only, in highly explicit sexual situations and is not intended for people under the age of 18. As is the case with all my novels, it is intended for the enjoyment of responsible adults everywhere.





March 27th, 2012

At long last, my new novel is cUming :-) It has taken a long time to get this manuscript to a point where I think it's worth your while. I'm writing the denouement this week and waiting to receive some final edits. I'm pleased with what I have done in terms of the quality of the plot. I think I may have improved my craft since the last time I published a book. Granted, I'm no Phillip Roth, but Phillip Roth doesn't write explicit femdom novels, thankfully, so I'm not competing with him.  My hope is that the female characters in my book are so vivid and brilliant that you'll almost be able to reach out and touch them. I'm also hoping to make the April 1st publish date, but if I don't, then I fooled you (ha ha) and it will be out no later than mid April (UPDATE: My new scheduled publish date is April 15th, 2012.  Sorry for the delays, but I want to get it right)
I have enjoyed crafting this story a great deal. I'll have some additional details about the key themes at a later date.

As soon as I'm done publishing this work, I will write a more cerebral blog entry, for those of you who care.  Peace.

February 27th, 2012
Hello,
I am getting close to completion on my latest novella. The working title I have is "A Fool And His Money," but there's a chance that will change. This one has taken me a lot of time. I'm hoping to publish it at the end of March. I could have churned this thing out several months ago if I wanted to produce a piece of mediocre garbage that does not reflect my evolution as a writer. Instead I won't stop until I think it's the best story I've written yet.   I hope that doesn't sound too pompous or arrogant. Anyway, I'm getting there, slowly but surely. Plus, now I have some editing help, which is nice.
I find it fascinating how many specific fetishes are contained within the Femdom sphere.  It feels as if everyone who has ever discussed the topic with me has their own unique set of favorite fantasies and fetishes.  I too have always had my own favorite fetishes and have explored them with my writing. Still, like anyone else, I prefer variety. I go through phases where one specific aspect of Femdom pleases me, and then suddenly I get in the mood for something else. I'm happy to say that my latest work features some new fetishes that I have yet to explore. That doesn't mean I stray too far from my basic formula -- deep psychological humiliation, female supremacy, defeat of the male -- but there are a few new angles in this novel.
For me it has always been a challenge figuring out what most of my readers enjoy.  Their preferences are incredibly varied. When I pursue a particular fetish, I inevitibly please some readers and disappoint others. And so I write about what turns me on, which can vary from week to week. Fortunately it seems like my sexual preferences and interests continue to evolve in unexpected ways. 


February 4th, 2012

Hello,

I continue to make steady progress on my latest novel. It is starting to resemble something that I'm going to feel good about when I finally publish it.

I have received a few notices lately from readers who have had difficulty downloading "My Bitchy-hot Niece, Denise from Lulu. I am working to resolve the issue. If you purchased My Bitchy-hot Niece Denise, or other books and were unable to download them, please please PLEASE don't be afraid to send me an email and I will make it right. The last thing I would ever want is for you to go away empty-handed. It makes me feel like a total schmuck. If you email me, your privacy is 100% assured and I will get you the book you paid for.
At the moment, I'm working with Lulu on some of these problems. Technology can be such a bitch.


January 7th, 2012

And now, at long last, time for a more detailed update.

 

 In the past year, I have been going through a divorce. It puts me in an odd situation with regard to this website, because I'm quite certain my ex-wife reads my blog, and out of respect for her I won't get into the details. It's a strange position for me to be in as a writer because the majority of my writing comes from real world experiences. I would love to share the million+ thoughts I have on my marriage, relationships in general, as well as what I've been up to lately, but it will all have to wait. In the meantime, I will say this: I married a good woman who was well aware of my preferences from the beginning and it is a shame we couldn't find a way to make things work. It wasn't for lack of trying.

I'll never completely lose my interest in the Femdom writing, but I have written so extensively in the past five years that I'm not sure I have much else to say. I don't think I'll ever write a better chastity novel than Teaching The Teacher. I don't think I'll ever write a better sissification novel than Melanie The Matchmaker. I don't think I'll write a better "Loving Femdom" novel than See How She Runs (him). I have no fewer than five different projects in the works. One of them is fairly close to completion, but I haven't been writing with the same degree of focus and I'm finding it difficult to write scenes that I haven't already written before. You never know when that will change, but that's the way it is for now. My latest novel "A Fool And His Money" may never make it to market, partly because I'm uninspired and partly because my readers deserve better (UPDATE: I got the spark again and am getting closer to completing this novel)

While I do believe my Femdom writing is amongst the most creative and devious available, I'm quite sure it could use additional editing. You will find the occasional typo and/or grammatical error and for that I'm very sorry.  Someone recently sent me a minor edit of "Letter From Shana," and I finally incorperated it in mid January. But my goal is to re-edit my work at some point. For those of you who haven't read one of my novels, I think you will find them 98-99% clean. But niggling issues remain -- such as the scene in Rhode Rage where Vanessa yells out "Further!" to her male charge. Ugh!  Anyway, I am always looking to clean up the mistakes, so please feel free to send comments and suggestions my way.  My focus has always been on the stories and the characters that inhabit them. 

Hope y'all are having a good year thus far and I'll check in again soon.  In the meantime, please email me if you feel like having a conversation.  It's always great to hear from people.


December 31st, 2011

Happy New Year.  Hope you did okay in 2011 and are looking forward to 2012.  I am fairly close to completing my latest novella, though I have had to delay completion due to work/time constraints, etc.  In the meantime, I updated my links.  Hoping to publish my latest novel in the next couple of months.  Cheers. 
 
November 10, 2011

The November 7th issue of the New Yorker contains an article on some of the recent sex novels and novellas written by authors far more famous and accomplished than myself. The essay, titled "Blue Period," by Joan Acocella, contends that modern erotica writing tends not to be as subtle as it used to be. Acocella references a famous Jane Austen passage that was far less direct than say, a James Pendergrass novella. Accocella asserts that modern sex writing has been turned upside down, and that authors have been increasingly overt in their descriptions of sexual activity. Nicholson Baker's hilarious new book House Of Holes is referenced as an example of smut overload that produces hilarious results. While undeniably funny, Baker's novel is not the type of writing that makes most people want to touch themselves and/or others.  The goal of my writing has never been to make the reader laugh, though I have been told that I can be humorous on occasion. I have always taken Femdom (and Maledom) as seriously as possible. My primary intention is to titillate the reader and help escort them to a realistic fantasy world, where the scenarios and dialogue feel plausible. That said, the typical James P novella still requires the reader to suspend his or her disbelief.
 

The New Yorker article caught my attention because it touched on a conflict that I feel when writing my novellas. Someone recently emailed me and said he prefers my more subtle work.  The mere suggestion of humiliation when one reads between the lines is more exciting than something that is too overt (in screenwriting, this mistake is called "on the nose" dialogue). Others are in it for the explicit x-rated scenes with vivid details and descriptions of the physicality of the power exchange. I enjoy both subtle dialogue and over the top X-rated scenes. If anything, as I get older, I find myself more interested in the subtle underlying psychological underpinnings of Femdom fetish. But at the same time I love getting deep into the details of a physical interaction because failure to do this will result in a boring scene that fails to distinguish my work.  Occasionally, I suppose my attention to detail can lead to some dreadful moments, but hey the work is still distinguished!  2011 has been a challenging year for me and it has been difficult for me to focus on one project. I have several in the works, and now I've started working on a short new Femdom novella. It's not groundbreaking, I don't think, but it's another interesting variation on a theme that I continue to enjoy exploring. I hope my latest novella features better writing than the last one, along with more vivid characters. That's the goal. And it will definitely feature wonderfully subtle moments as well as highly explicit scenes. For me, the journey is often more enjoyable than the actual climax.  

October 11, 2011

Now that I'm on my own again, I have had a chance to analyze some of the "alternative" dating sites out there. I don't believe in paying money to merely find another human being. For fuck's sake there are seven billion of us. Therefore, I will restrict my comment to free sites.  Here is my take on three of the more popular ones:

Fetlife.com -- Fetlife has been hailed as the Facebook for sexual deviants, or something to that effect. The site is user-friendly and easy to navigate. There are plenty of intelligent people on the site and it's safe to say that you'll be able to find whatever your favorite kink is and engage in discussions with other like-minded people. I will say there is some benefit in discussing kink; the problem is that these discussions often break down into pointless, time-wasting disagreements about who is behaving properly. There are so many pricks and douches who feel the need to "police" the site. For that reason, among others, I believe that Fetlife fails miserably as a dating site. I should warn you that this opinion relates to my own personal preferences and style, and that some people will have more success on Fetlife than I have had.  My problem is that too many people on Fetlife are involved in the so-called BDSM "scene." I abhor the meaning behind this word, as well as most of the people who consider themselves participants in this scene, which is, from what I can gather, a group of loosely connected people that go to disgusting bdsm swinger expos and wear shiny latex and leather, and are so often critical of newcomers and people that approach kink differently than they do. I recently engaged in a ridiculous verbal battle with a poorly-educated woman from the western part of my state who began verbally lambasting me in ALL CAPS and threatened to blacklist me when I said something honest and not the least bit impolite. Fetlife shows just how cliquey and annoying human behavior can be. If you're a submissive guy looking to meet a dominant woman for a mutually beneficial one-on-one relationship, you are best off looking elsewhere. In conclusion, Fuck Fetlife. GRADE: D minus.

Collarme.com -- Collarme is not nearly as well organized, or intuitively designed as Fetlife. However, the one key advantage Collarme.com has over Fetlife is that it focused exclusively on people who are interested in meeting and "dating" compatible kinksters. The bad thing about collarme is that there is an incredible amount of trash (read: stupid, uneducated people) on this site, as well as predators. The good thing is that if you are smart and can read between the lines Collarme does enable you to scout out and contact worthwhile people in your own area. I did have the misfortune of meeting up with a woman on Collarme. She was young and very bright. We went out for drinks and subsequently had a session where I paid her to dominate me. In the early part of our relationship, she went out of her way to say how cool I was and how she couldn't wait to play with me. She even originally was going to join me for a weekend at my summer home before cancelling at the last minute. In the end, we had a terrible session, where she failed to listen and understand my needs as a sub, despite my open and honest approach about what I was looking for. Instead, she killed me with kindness, while slithering off into the night. This is all my fault. Let it be known I'm not into being taken this way. It was lame, and so is she. Buyer bewhere. GRADE: C.

OkCupid.com -- Here is your winner. It's an incredibly intuitive site and it enables you to determine your level of compatibility with other people. The best part about OKC is that it's not for kinksters. It's for everyone, yet there are plenty of sexually open-minded people on OKC.  It's a great place to meet relatively normal people, who aren't part of the "scene" and aren't looking to make you pay to spend time with them. I have been on this site for a couple of months and I have already found women who aren't necessarily experienced fetishists, but who are open-minded and intrugued by me as a person. My advise to you is to sign up if you already haven't. Don't go overboard with your kinks in describing yourself publicly. Scout out women that you think might potentially be interested. Avoid the hens who are looking for a husband to have their 2.5 kids with, unless this is what you desire, and have some fun. GRADE: A minus

Lastly, with regard to dating, my advice is to be careful out there and treat people the way you wish to be treated. If it doesn't work out, move on and you'll eventually find someone who is into you.

I'll have an update on my writing as soon as possible. Cheers.


September 1st, 2011


Summer is almost gone. It always amazes me how fast it goes by. Soon it will be getting dark mid-afternoon and I'll be freezing my nuts off.

My fiction projects are on-hold for the time being. I have several stories I've been working on, but they have taken a back seat to a couple of non-fiction efforts  For the time being at least, I feel as though I have hit a wall with my fiction writing.  I think the time is ripe for me to try to evolve and explore new areas of my fetishes. In the meantime, please be advised that I posted "Young Blonde Executive" in its entirety on www.smtales.com. If you previously purchased this novel, send me a note and I will send you another novella free of charge. I have also added a good new ballbusting link. For those who enjoy ballbusting, may I direct you to Party Slave Videos:    I think I have exploded at least ten times watching the video "Jasper's Slumber Party -- Ballkicking & Whipping "

Regarding the non-fiction pieces I'm working on, one is an effort to increase the pool of great humiliatrixes in the world today. My hope is to help level the playing field for submissive men seeking an outlet. We are currently in a situation where quality humiliatrixes can charge absurd fees for their services and it makes sexual satisfaction for perverted males of modest means almost an impossibility. I'm hoping to change that. The other fiction piece I'm working on is my personal story. It's a memoir and an effort at self-exploration (mental self exploration, not hand/cock exploration) that was long overdue. If you are a submissive male who is confused and/or troubled by your fantasies, I think you will appreciate this one. I have no idea how long it will take me to write, but I'm cranking on it. My hope is that it offers some ground-breaking commentary on the modern submissive male (Update: I have ditched this project for the time being). In my dreams, I'll be on Oprah some day. Then again, does she still have a show? I guess I'd settle for Doctor Phil then.


August 9th, 2011

Hi,

I have posted a free new short story and you can find it on the main menu. The story, titled "Letter From Shana," is about a woman who calmly takes control of her husband and turns him into her loyal and obedient underling. I believe those of you who enjoy the male chastity fetish will love this story.

Also, I have added a new link. Because the Clips4Sale website is saturated with so much garbage, sometimes the most beautiful and talented humiliatrixes slip through my radar. This website, titled Party Slave Videos, features some incredibly hot ballbusting, whipping, and humiliation. These Ladies have been around for at least a couple of years and they are amazing.  Check it out. You won't be disappointed.

Been a busy summer. I'm going in a slightly different direction with my new writing project, but I can't spill the beans at this time. Updates will be forthcoming. In the meantime, I have discovered the most spectacular, beautiful, mean, brilliant humiliatrix. (Update September 1st:  I think she might be too mean for me.  Never thought that would happen.  Oh well -- as the saying goes, be careful what you wish for...)

July 12th, 2011

Things are starting to hop again in the mind of one James Xavier Pendergrass.  I've been in the process of writing a short fictitious "letter" in the female first person, where a modern married woman calmly describes how she convinced her husband that male chastity was best for both of them.  Like most of my favorite works, this one has been a joy to write.  The letter features an in-depth description of the DL2000, a male "management" tool I've recently become infatuated with.
  
 

 

Ultimately, my writing is always from the perspective of a horny male.  Because of this, I have often stretched reality to help suit my fantasies.  In my latest short project, I'm making a concerted effort to keep it as real as possible, while digging as I always do into the psychological eroticism of female supremacy.  Ultimately, I write about my fantasies.  So why is it that I so often find myself writing in the female first person?

 

More than one intelligent domme has told me in recent email communications that my writing doesn't capture the true female perspective.  One even told me that my writing hinted at underlying male chauvinism.  I think she was totally onto something.  Recently I've started classifying myself as a switch.  While my fantasies usually center on Femdom, I got great enjoyment when I wrote the Maledom story "The Nine Inch Nail."  After all, men are the physically dominant gender.  This inequality works both ways.  There's something about a beautiful, fine-boned woman getting manhandled by brute force, just as there's something about a strong man getting outmaneuvered and ultimately defeated by feminine cunning.  I love the power exchange.

 

In any event, as soon as I complete it, look for my latest short work to be posted at Altairboy's Chastity Site, among other places. 



June 24th, 2011

I've begun work on a cool new novel.  This one has one of the most intricate plots I have ever put together.  The plot is such that I bring in a variety of Female characters who share in the ultimate destruction of our male protaganist.

I don't yet have a working title for this project, but I will keep you posted.  I'm thinking it will be complete at some point late summer, early fall.   

I've added an interesting link.  DreamLoverLabs promotes itself as the ultimate "male management" device.  I can't vouch for the product at all, but the website itself is super hot if you're into the male chastity theme.  I find myself very curious about the people behind this project because they have designed an extremely erotic website and an exciting concept to be sure.  Strongly recommended.



June 3rd, 2011

I'm thrilled to report that 
Feminine Persuasion is now available at Lulu.com.  These are five memorable stories featuring diverse, complex charaters and some of the most detailed and imaginative scenes of Female Domination available today.  I will have a more complete entry in the next couple of weeks.  In the meantime, I hope you enjoy the collection.  Please email me with your thoughts and observations.  It is always great to hear from you.


May 22nd, 2011

Sorry for the lack of recent updates.  Things continue to progress with Feminine Persuasion.  I'm looking to get it out there around June 1st.  Thanks for your patience.  The wait will be worth it! 



April 22nd, 2011

I've been going through a fair amount of personal turmoil lately and my writing has taken somewhat of a back seat.  That said, I have been making decent progress editing "Feminine Persuasion."  It's coming along nicely, but it's not there yet.  There's a good possibility this will be my last Femdom publication for quite some time, if not ever.  I'm looking to move onto something a bit more mainstream, and I've gotten close to exhausting my imagination on this delicious subject.  Who knows, maybe something will rekindle, but I've written 14 or 15 Femdom novels in the past 40 months.  Between that and a few free short stories, I think I've written over half a million words.  Crazy, huh?  Feminine Persuasion has a lot of potential.  I'd like to think I'm a better writer than when this all started, but people still rave about "FDP," a short story I wrote in 2007 when this all started, as well as The Intern, which remains the best selling title of my collection. 

Anyway, I won't publish Feminine Persuasion until I'm confident it's worthy of my readers.  If it's the last thing I put out there, I want to make sure it doesn't suck.  My best guess is that I'll be ready to publish in late May.

Check out my links section if you get a chance.  I've added a few nice nuggets in this week's update. 



March 20th, 2011

At long last, I'm making good progress on my next publication.  Tentatively titled "Feminine Persuasion," it's my latest collection of never-before-published short stories.  Two of the stories are focused on Ballbusting.  The one I'm working on now, "Daniella Scrotum Destroyer" is one of my best Ballbusting vignettes yet.  I'm very pleased with it.  Another story is about a deaf Woman who uses her incredible Sense Of Smell (the title) to sniff out a submissive male.  Thete collection also features there's a CFNM Medical story that has wonderfully subtle humiliation (see earlier entry below).  And lastly is a story titled, "It" about a man who is enslaved by a Woman's Vagina. 

These stories are long enough so that I can provide the crucial details and insights they deserve.  The key to a good Femdom story, IMO, is a deep exploration into the psychological implications of a given scene or moment.  By digging into the minds of the Female and male, I think it gives my stories a certain edge.  I hope you enjoy the latest collection.  It features beautiful, intelligent, modern Women, who use their Feminine power to control and humiliate males.  I hope to release this at some point in mid to late April.


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March 7th, 2011

Just a brief update today:  I've been busy in the past few weeks re-editing and updating a pair of old classics -- Amanda Grows Up and Miss Amy - M.B.A.  If you've ever thought about purchasing either of these novels, there has never been a better time.  The first editions of these novels were certainly strong, but then I went back and revisited a few of the key scenes.  I added some delicious details to scenes that were good to begin with.  The result is some of the most realistic, most vicious, most erotic Femdom dialogue you will ever read.  In the case of Amanda, the reader will enjoy her evolution into a Dominant Female, as she learns the art of male sexual humiliation and proves herself to be a blazing talent.  In the case of Amy, the girl simply takes apart her male lackey in a series of incredible scenes.  I must say the ballbusting moments in Miss Amy - M.B.A. are difficult to top, if you're into that sort of thing.
 
If you've already purchased these titles prior to March, 2011, email me the old pdf file and I will replace it with a brand spanking new, updated version of the novel.   

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  January 30th, 2011

Hello, I want to discuss Medical CFNM.  It's a category that I often overlook in favor of more overt Female Domination themes.  But it definitely holds a space in my fantasy world.  This will be a longer entry because I have plenty to say on this delicious subject.

One of the many great things about Female doctors is that they are, almost without exception, highly educated, intelligent Women.  It takes a great deal of schooling to become a doctor in this country.  I have been fortunate enough to have a few memorable real-life experiences with Medical Femdom.  The best one took place ten years ago.  I moved to a new place and chose a Female physician as my primary care doctor.  She was in her late 30s, petite, dark-haired, and kind, but at the same time no-nonsense.  During our initial meeting she asked me if I conducted regular testicular self-examinations.  I think my response was wishy-washy because she offered to do one for me.  After that, I became nervous and excited.  I think she realized this because she said we didn't have to do the examination.  I stammered that it might be a good idea just to check.  She told me to strip down to my underwear and put on a gown while she put up a curtain and left the room. When she returned, she had me lie back on the table and pull down my briefs, while I kept the gown on.  I could feel myself begin to get an erection and I was very embarrassed.  She pulled back my gown just as my penis had begun to inflate.  At that point, she did something very professional and kind.  My penis was in the process of falling back onto my stomach, as inflating penises will do, and so she covered it with the bottom of my gown while she conducted a proper inspection of my testicles.  When I got home, I barely touched myself before I exploded.

All in all, I'd love to still have a Female physician, but I find having one causes my blood pressure to skyrocket.  I had a couple of incidents where my blood pressure was ridiculously high and the female doctor became very alarmed.  Ultimately, because of that, I've made the mature decision to avoid female doctors.

But that doesn't stop me from fantasizing.

The inherent beauty of a CFNM Doctor scene lies in what I like to think of as a "required subtlety" of such a scenario.  Female doctors and nurses understand the need to maintain professional boundaries in situations such as these.  Most of them are aware that certain men get off on the idea of being forced to strip for them.  They also know certain men are terribly embarrassed to be put in that situation.  These underlying, unspoken dynamics can at times create an awkward situation, and at times create an erotically charged exchange between clothed Female and nude male.  Many young men will become erect in the presence of attractive Female doctors and nurses, and this can be terribly embarrassing and humiliating for the male.  Because a sense of decorum must be maintained, all erotic aspects of the situation must remain unarticulated.  To me, it's the ultimate subtle Femdom moment, when a male must relinquish his privacy.  I like to think that

there are a number of Female doctors and nurses out there who take pleasure in their power in these situations, as well as the embarrassed reactions of their male patients.  

In the past few days, I wrote what I think is a terrific short story in the Female Doctor first person, about a Female physician who takes private joy in stripping and subtly humiliating male patients.  It will be part of my upcoming short story collection, which I anticipate releasing in April.  If you enjoy the CFNM Femdom Medical theme, I believe you will absolutely adore this story.  

 

If you're looking for my past novels that covered this theme, try The Johnsons, and Miss Amy, MBA, along with E.T., which is thus far my ultimate statement on medical Femdom.  But my latest short story is the topper, IMO.  

Also, if you're looking for Femdom Medical images available on-line, I strongly recommend the artwork of Barbara O'Toole.  She's a bit of a mystery, as most of her art has been around for several years and I have no idea if she is still creating art or not.  But I do know this:  Her Femdom Medical artwork is electrifying.  She also has good OTK spanking femdom images as well.  I would say her primary influence is Norman Rockwell.  She takes his style and turns it into something incredibly erotic.  Here's the most comprehensive link to her artwork that I'm aware of.  

 

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January 8th, 2011

2011!  Holy shit.  I guess the future is here.

January is always a tough month for me.  It's cold and dark and my existential crisis gene tends to flare up.  This is the time of year where I tend to look to the bottle for comfort.  Lately I've been in one of those moods where I'm grasping for something that I can't find.  I feel insatiable and I'm continually searching for a high that will satisfy me.  The good news is that this doesn't usually last and I expect to snap out of it at some point.    

Now that I'm in the early stages of middle age, I find that I'm not as perpetually horny as I used to be.  My sex drive has become cyclical in nature, not unlike the menstrual cycle of a Woman, not that I'd really know what that's like.  But then again, we're all human and I do think it's possible for a male to speculate. 

I can't write about femdom effectively unless I'm turned on, and so my writing has been sporadic lately.  I've gravitated toward short stories lately because they give me more flexibility.  With short stories, I don't feel as committed to a specific project and therefore I'm willing to take more chances and come up with fresh ideas.  My latest story is about a male who becomes totally brainwashed by a Woman's Vagina to the point where it becomes the center of his existence.  

I met up with an old friend over the holidays who told me he found it admirable how I don't show any shame about my sexual fantasies.  I had to chuckle at that because I believe much of the femdom-humiliation fetish relates to the shame men feel over their own desires.  On the one hand, I think he's right and I don't particularly care if I'm outed.  On the other hand, I'm selective with whom I share my writing with.  People can be judgmental, and my writing is certainly not for every taste.  I would argue that shame is the very essence of what makes my writing erotic, and that I feel as much shame as anyone.  Shame fuels me.  

I've always been fascinated, and terrified, by human vulnerability, and Femdom plays directly into this.  In our formative years, we're all basically helpless and need to rely upon a higher power (adults -- usually Women -- although that has changed in recent years) for our survival.  For these reasons I think sexually submissive behavior among both men and Women is 100% natural.

Have any of you been following the story of Rex Ryan?  He is the big/fat/tough coach of the New York Jets in the most popular sports league in the USA.  He recently was outed, for lack of a better term, as a foot fetishist.  A few years ago he filmed his wife's feet while he was off camera commenting on how delicious they looked.  Now there are rumors that he's a cuckold.  I find the whole affair to be fascinating since it forces all the meathead football fans out there to possibly do a little self inspection.  I have a hard time with all the fake people (mostly men) that point their plastic fingers at this guy and call him weird and freakish.  I have my doubts that anyone in the world is solely interested in vanilla sex.   

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December 20th, 2010

Hello.  I hope you're having a good holiday season.  I have a few things to share in today's Memoirs From a Femdom-Obsessed Male:

I've begun working on a new novel.  The working title is "The Heavy Bag" and it has a strong focus on ballbusting.  I believe this will be my 15th or 16th novel, and I've found it a challenge recently to keep things fresh, while staying within the Femdom theme.  The good news is that Femdom is a wonderfully deep field.  The Female (of the human variety) is such a complex, fascinating creature.  She comes in so many shapes, sizes, and personalities.  That said, I've been deeply exploring this topic in my writing for the past three years or so and I think I'm getting close to the bottom if it.  But who knows?  I thought I was finished after my third novel and look where we are now.  Either way, I will eventually run out of ideas.  We all do.  

Anyway, The Heavy Bag has a promising beginning.  I don't think I've ever written a novel with ballbusting as the centerpiece. Some of my recent short stories in Ball Sprawl were dedicated to the subject (“Ball Sprawl” and “Coed Soccer”), but never a full-length piece until now. We'll see how it goes.  If things go well, I hope to publish it in February.  

While we're on the subject of ballbusting, I've added a ballbusting link.  Kicked And Abused has been around for a while and I guess I never paid it enough attention, largely because I'm not physically attracted to the lead domme.  However, I recently took a closer look.  Goddess Megan has won me over with her absolutely brutal style.  Her male slave is quite the excellent lackey.  He can take a ton of punishment, and his sack appears permanently enlarged from all the damage Megan and her Girlfriends have dished out.  He's almost always doubled-teamed by Meghan and whatever Gal she happens to meet in the course of her daily life.  Some of the Women Megan has brought in to bust nuts with her are utterly spectacular.  At the top of the list is Alyse, a gorgeous young blonde and a complete ballbusting STARLET.  The videos featuring Alyse are without question some of the hottest available on line.  An absolute MUST if you enjoy my style of femdom.  

In other news, I'm close to publishing my male-dom story -- The Nine Inch Nail.  Just waiting for the right opportunity to post it on smtales.com and bdsmlibrary.com before the end of 2010.

Have a happy and safe New Year.  

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November 30th, 2010

Every so often, a previously unknown young person comes out of nowhere to dominate his or her field.  In music, we once had Mozart, whereas nowadays we're blessed with Justin Bieber (yuck).  In baseball, Dwight Gooden become a dominant pitcher at an incredibly young age back in the mid 1980s.  Last I checked, he was beset with legal and drug problems.  And who could forget Doogie Houser MD who dominated hospitals at the tender age of 16?  And I'm happy to report Neil Patrick-Harris is doing great.  He had a brilliant turn in Harold And Kumar Go To White Castle.

In the world of femdom, I'm proud to announce the arrival of a brilliant young humiliatrix.  Princess Perfect is a stunningly gorgeous young Woman.  But her physical traits alone would mean little if not for the fact that she has a wonderfully arrogant attitude and natural dominant instincts.  For all the Women out there looking to make money dominating men, might I humbly suggest you pay attention to the way Princess Perfect dresses herself?  Princess Perfect wears snug-fitting straight skirts that hang well above her hips.  She always wears high heels and always spends the time to do her hair, demonstrating that it's possible to be incredibly sexy without being the least bit slutty.  "Slutty" is a big no-no in the world of Femdon fashion, in my not so humble opinion, and it's such a common mistake.  As you know, if you've read any of my stories, I very much prefer Femdoms in classy, elegant attire.  Women need not dress overly provocatively  to look beautiful.  When a Woman is as well put-together as Princess Perfect, it conveys the notion that She has her life in order and is a Female worthy of being worshipped 

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 this stage, I would not describe Princess Perfect's verbal skills as dazzling, but she hits on the right words and carries a certain air of superiority in her sessions that comes off as natural.  She doesn't try to overdo things, and doesn't make the most common mistake of all, which is to rant, rave, and act angry while dominating men.  She asserts control with confidence and she isn't shy about pointing out that her subs are paying her for the right to grovel at her feet.  She understands that men need to be humiliated and she does so unapologetically, and in a way that leads one to believe that her superiority is real.  It's a joy to watch a lovely young Woman carry herself with such confidence.  Here's hoping she surrounds herself with capable advisors and makes the most of her considerable talents...

(UPDATE April 22nd, 2011 -- Princess Perfect has disappeared from the scene.  To my knowledge, she hasn't made a video in several months.   I can only speculate as to why that is, but maybe her family found out the shit she was up to and brought the heat down on her.  The girl claimed to be only 19, which is awfully young.  And she never did any scenes with nude males, which indicates she had some qualms about what she was doing.  And who could blame her for that?  If she wants to go corporate, it's possible she's concerned about sullying her reputation.  I wish her the best, wherever she lands.  UPDATE November, 2011 -- she is back, but still performing only R-rated scenes.)

In other news, I have been working feverishly on a 15,000 word male-dom story called "The Nine Inch Nail."  For Femdom fans, it's probably not the news you want to hear, but you still might want to check this one out, especially since I'll be posting it free of charge on various sites.  As is usually the case with my writing, it focuses on the psychological side of S&M, while at the same time offering intricate (and hopefully erotic) physical details.  The story features a highly compelling female character who paints herself into a corner than then has no choice but to take it in every orifice.  If you're a sub who is into sissification, with the tiniest bit of imagination you can put youself in the woman's shoes and it will be a joyful ride.  As a general rule, I much prefer Female Domination, but this story has been a joy to write.  I'll be going back to my Femdom roots in early 2011.       

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November 9th, 2010 

I want to write a little more about Femdom Imagery and the way in which it infuses eroticism into my mind and gets my blood flowing. 

Like my last entry, there's an irony here.  In sharing with you the way my brain processes the visual intricacies of Femdom, I'll be guilty of objectifying Women.  For decades, this has been a primary complaint of Feminists and the Women's Liberation movement when it comes to pornography -- namely that Women are reduced to sexual objects as they dominate men.  Therein lies the irony of the situation.  But as you'll read in a moment, the male form and its contrast to the Woman plays a direct role in all this.  So I guess you could say I'm guilty of objectifying both men and Women.  That makes me an equal-opportunity “objectifier” in my book. 

When it comes to Femdom imagery, the basis for all of my fantasies is CFNM -- the notion that Women retain their physical dignity in the form of privacy, while the male is quite literally stripped of his own. Some will argue that dignity and clothing have little to do with each other, but in my eyes and in the eyes of most submissive men, there's a direct correlation.

Here are three specific examples of the type of imagery that I find pleasing: 

1.  A Women in classy, elegant attire, and her subtle movements.  Have you ever closely studied the typical movement of a Female who has good posture?  I attended a modern art exhibit last year where one of the pieces featured a silhouette of a Woman walking down a street.  If you're like me, you find eroticism in this...the way she swings her hips, the way her arms move in perfect coordination with her lower body, her slender fingers rubbing back and forth against her outer-thigh.  There is great beauty in feminine composure.  In my mind, it manifests itself as an expression of confidence and superiority.  Taking this a step further, I enjoy watching a slender, well-dressed Woman merely standing, preferably with her feet together.  The side profile is especially erotic.  If the Woman is wearing tight, comfortably fitting clothing, you're afforded an incredible view of the rise of her pubic bone.  Note the way it protrudes ever so slightly forward from her thighs, presenting an elusive hint of the treasure, which lies beneath.  One last subtle movement that drives me crazy with lust is when a Woman instinctively reaches up with one hand to slide her hair away from the side of her face.  It's such an instinctively feminine maneuver, something that happens so naturally and something you'd never see a male do.  I especially enjoy this maneuver when a Woman is in the process of kicking nuts.  She's gracefully brushing aside her hair, so she has a good visual of her target, as she sets herself to deliver another important blow for Womankind, which brings us to.... 

 2. A Good, Hard Ballkicking.  There are so many reasons why this is visually pleasing.  For starters, let's look at the basics.  The Woman is clothed and preferably wearing high heels, or boots.  She is intent upon causing pain and humiliation.  The male is nude and his legs are spread.  This is a key notion.  The male is an active participant in his own humiliation.  He's physically submitting to the Female, opening up the most vulnerable part of his body to punishment.  There is no logical reason for him to submit this way, so his spread legs effectively convey the mental power the Woman holds over him. Have you ever studied the slow-motion flex of a Woman's crotch when she pulls her leg back and prepares to kick a male in the nuts?  It is something to behold, as is her calf muscle as it swings forward.  Finally, we have The Collision.  The Collision is spectacular for so many reasons.  For me, it relates to the momentum of the Woman's foot, which is not the least bit disrupted by her contact with the male's genitalia.  Rather, it's the cock and balls that fully yield to Feminine force, contorting in the most spectacular fashion, as the Female foot continues its journey through the soft skin and cartilage until it slams comfortably against the pelvis.  When the cock and balls go flying, it gives the male a circus animal appearance, especially when factoring the background of his hairy ass crack (on doggie-style kicks), whereas every curve and shape of a Woman's body is perfectly conceived.  My short story "Ball Sprawl" deals with this subject better than any other story I've ever written.

3. OTK Spanking.  I've talked at such length about OTK spanking that not much more needs to be said.   It's especially nice when the Woman's legs and feet are neatly together, as it displays her composure.  A hairbrush fits nicely since it's an everyday object converted into an instrument of female domination.  A bright red male ass conveys the seriousness of the situation.  This is not just a game; the male is receiving a painful and intensely humiliating reminder of his place.  I also prefer the male to have his arm twisted behind his back in such a way that he can't easily escape.  The Woman has a look of concentration on her face, but her lips are curled up in a slight smile, as she takes great pride and joy in presiding over the male's defeat.  The male's face is contorted in a such a way that displays realization and incredulity of his predicament.  Handled properly, the image is one of total Cunt Power. 

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October 17th, 2010

For those who seek a preview of my latest novel, "Teaching The Teacher," please see my previous two entries below.

And now, a stream-of-consciousness entry that I think sub males can probably relate to:  

 

The reason I find the clips4sale.com website fascinating is that it serves as an unofficial measure of the tastes and desires of "popular" fetish culture.  The site has a top 50 list, both by site and by individual clips, which enables the viewer to get a good sense for what's "hot" and what's not.  (Now all clips4sale.com desperately needs is a review/ratings system, but that's another subject for another time.

I'm always curious to see the type of femdom sites and videos that make it to the top.  Some are better than others, but one thing I've been struck by is the way the average femdom viewer's taste tends to be more outlandish than my preferences. Outlandish in the sense that people seem to prefer more black leather, latex, whips, chains, and theme rooms than I do. They prefer their dominant Women dressed in these wild outfits that the Women would never get caught wearing in public. 

It puzzles me that so many sub men gravitate toward scenes of Women in what I view as bizarre attire.  I find Women so much more beautiful and dominant in everyday skirts, blouses, jeans, leisure pants, pumps, scarves, etc.  I don't hold anyone's fetish against them, but I don't understand why men prefer dominas dressed in fetish gear.  To me, it serves to subjugate the Woman, as it takes her out of her natural state.  Others might argue it makes her more sexually powerful, in a visual sense.  More power to them, but I'm not that way.  

As a Femdom writer and incessant "fantasizer," my desire has always been oriented toward realism.  For me, that implies Women in their natural state, wearing comfortable clothing.  My writing almost always features  interactions between "normal" people living their lives in a modern, impersonal world.  It's exciting to fantasize about an unexpected and lewd sexual connection forged amid the monotony of the typical person's day.  I love the contrast between the normal social constructs we live with, and Femdom sexual humiliation.  

When I think of a Female dressed in "dominatrix attire" for lack of a better term, it implies effort on her behalf.  She had to spend time and energy putting herself into an unnatural state.  I'm very much inspired by the idea of a dominant Woman effortlessly controlling men.  She merely needs to exist, and her presence alone, along with her intelligence, is more than enough to overcome the male's physical advantage.  It's this idea that her innate sexuality and beauty can overpower the male species, which in many cases it can.  Thus, her attire is almost an afterthought.  She dresses in clothes that fit her and make her feel like a Woman.  There's a conservatism that I associate with  my archetypical Dominant Woman.  She's refined and sophisticated.  She thinks and moves with great care and forethought.  This is directly linked to personal appearance.  The contrast between Feminine conservatism and the animal instinct of the male is a key basis for erotic female-over-male domination.  In my constructs, the Woman is far more civilized than the man.  She is more calm and calculating.  Her heart rate doesn't fluctuate as much. 

Too many Femdoms seem to "slut it up."  I won't name any names, but many of the most talented Femdoms on clips4sale are too willing to show their bodies, and shake their money makers.  I'm talking about some of the most talented dommes on the web.  Sometimes I want to write to them and tell them to stop slutting it up so much.  Of course, this is ridiculous and unfair on my part.  These Women have sexual libidos that deserve to be satisfied.  In most cases, I think they slut it up only because they enjoy doing it.  The fact is that my vision of a world where Women are these perfect species with flawless self-control who use their vaginas to subjugate the beastly male species is not based in reality.  In reality, Women have animal instincts too.  Women are emotional creatures.  And in many ways, these instincts and emotions don't support my Femdom fantasies.  

So basically, I will conclude this entry by saying my desire to see Femdoms in their more "natural" clothed state is hypocritical on my part, and could be viewed as an example of a sub (me) attempting to top-from-the-bottom -- to manipulate and control a scene in a way that gratifies me first and foremost.  This is precisely the reason I have written so many Femdom novels.  I think it's because I have very exacting desires and fetishes that I can best satisfy when I'm in full control of the scene.  And that's the beauty of being able to write about it. 


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October 12th, 2010 --

I want to share some additional details about Teaching The Teacher:  I should have mentioned this in my original post -- this latest novel of mine has, in my estimation, the greatest Femdom OTK Spanking scenes I have ever written.  Readers of my earlier work will know that this is a strong claim, but I stand behind it.  As I've written before, I wouldn't continue to put out Femdom novels unless I felt I was still uncovering new angles on this delicious subject.  The themes remain similar, but my prose continues to evolve. 

In particular, for as long as I can remember, I've been fascinated by the hairbrush as a tool used by Women to discipline males.  If you've ever been spanked with a hairbrush, you know how incredibly painful and humiliating it can be.  In Teaching The Teacher, as part of his "education," the male protagonist is forced to endure some of the most ego-crushing OTK hairbrush spankings imaginable. 

What makes my spanking scenes different?  Forgive the egotistical nature (ironic, isn't it?) of this comment, but I delve into the intense psychological impact of a F/m spanking more effectively than any other writer I have ever encountered.  I try to get into the mind of the the male subject as he is methodically broken down by the Woman.  I convey the sense of desperation as his mind seeks escape and discovers there is none to be had.  And I make sure to cover the brutal aftermath, when the male has been reduced to sobs and the Women all take great joy in his red ass and bouncing genitals (note the heavy emphasis on CFNM humiliation) as his emotions completely melt down.

In my stories, the Women are always ruthless when it comes to OTK spankings.  The typical James Pendergrass Female character knows how resourceful the male ego is and She is determined to destroy it. She knows few things are more humiliating to a male than a severe bare-assed spanking, preferably in front of several other clothed Females.  I think you'll find the subtle and not-so-subtle aspects of these OTK scenes to be incredibly erotic.  Every detail of before, during, and after the spanking is carefully attended to, and the goal is to convey the deep sense of "Cunt Power," for lack of a better term, that has taken place. In this case, I use the word "cunt" to reflect my utmost respect for the beauty and majesty of the Female gender.


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n Teaching The Teacher, my lead Female character has discovered an OTK technique that is beautifully effective in achieving its goal of enforcing male humility.  She uses the technique again and again throughout the novel, teaching other Women the benefits of her brutally clever method.  Those who enjoy the idea of Femdom OTK spanking will find these scenes, among others, to be quite thrilling. 

 

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September 30th, 2010 --

I'm glad to announce the publication of my *14th eBook, Teaching The Teacher.  

Teaching The Teacher is the story of James, an unmotivated, mysogynistic, 32-year-old math teacher.  After a promising start to his teaching career, James has been going through the motions for years.  The lone bright spot in his life is the gorgeous Lori, a 29-year-old marketing manager, to whom he is engaged.  A source of great pride and great frustration to James, Lori has vowed to remain celebate until marriage.  With no wedding date yet announced, James seeks other outlets for sexual release, chiefly Asian massages that end happily, as well as the occasional prostitute. 

At the beginning of his tenth year of teaching, James is delighted to discover that the school has hired Talia Yount, a 24-year-old Woman from New York City, to teach kindergarten.  At first glance, Talia appears the crunchy type, with her nose ring and art-deco blouses.  On closer inspection James discovers she has a feisty, feminine persona, and a luscious body.  A lifelong conservative, James is also amused to discover that Talia is a (gasp) liberal.  He decides to make her his next conquest.

James quickly learns that Talia isn't quite the pushover he thought she was.  After a failed attempt to get her in the sack, he finds himself cornered by the precocious, vindictive young Woman who sees his philandering as a golden opportunity to have some fun and teach him a few life lessons.  She uses enforced male chastity as her weapon of choice.  Although many of my novels feature the chastity theme, this is the first novel I've written in which male chastity is the centerpiece.  In some ways I think it adds an element of realism that my readers will find gratifying.   

Talia soon befriends the conservative Lori and teaches her the benefits of Female Domination, and the deep sense of satisfaction a Girl can have when she makes the rules.  The relationship between the two young Women is mutually beneficial, as Lori begins to exert a positive influence on Talia's personal style (clothing, hair, etc).   Talia is thorough and relentless; she won't stop until James has been reprogrammed into something useful.  In my estimation, she's the most fabulous young Femdom character that I have ever created.  

Teaching The Teacher is written in mock-journal style.  At the start of the school year, James has decided to record the near-daily details of his tenth year of teaching.  Little does he know the type of experiences he'll be writing about.  In addition to James' steady journal entries, the novel is augmented by what I refer to as "Interludes," in which we are treated to discussions between Talia and Lori as they conspire to put James permanently in his place.  These scenes are written in playwright form and enable my readers to be privy to some of the most deliciously erotic Female Supremacy discussions between young Females that you will ever come across.

At 45,000 words, this is my longest and most comprehensive novel to date, and I'm certain it's the best work I've ever done on the subject of Female Domination.  If you've never purchased one of my novels, I recommend you start here.  I believe you'll find Teaching The Teacher to be quite engaging from the outset.  Because it's longer than my other novels, it's given me the freedom to take more time building up the suspense and excitement before the ultra-explicit scenes begin to kick in.  The final resolution to this novel is easily the best ending I have ever written.  I took great pains to make certain the climactic scenes deliver on the promise of the rest of the work.  But I promise you won't have to wait until the end of this novel to read some incredibly erotic passages.  I hope you enjoy.

*****

 

September 11th, 2010 --

When I first decided to call myself James Pendergrass, I'm not sure I was thinking it through.  To my knowledge there are at least two real James Pendergrasses in the USA, and probably more of them in Britain.  I'd like to take this opportunity to formally apologize to those folks named James Pendergrass.  None of them have contacted me as of yet, but I can imagine they might be aware that I'm out there, writing these incredibly lewd novels of Female Domination and potentially sullying their image. I wonder if their friends have brought the subject up with them.  In a way I suppose it's kind of funny. Perhaps some day I'll get an angry email from a real James Pendergrass telling me that I have fucked up his life.  Maybe a real James P will hire a private investigator, or hunt me down and kill me.  And maybe I'm allowing my imagination to get the better of me. 

This entry sets the record straight -- my name isn't James Pendergrass.  So if you're a friend of a dude named James Pendergrass and you stumbled upon this website I'd like you to know that your friend isn't the perverted mutherfucker who writes femdom stories.  That would be me.  Now that I have your attention, you might want to check out some of my writing. It's quite erotic.    

In conclusion, if I could do it again I'd call myself Xavier Pendergrass.  Surely there can't be any Xavier Pendergrasses out there.

I'm happy to report that my latest novel, Teaching The Teacher, is complete.  I'm in the process of touching it up and I expect to publish it on the first of October.  At over 40,000 words, it's my longest novel and quite possibly my best.  It's definitely up there with Two Leashes and See How She Runs (him), which are my personal faves.  My latest novel takes some of the playwright-style dialogue ideas, which were so popular in The Intern, to the next level.  I absolutely adore the main female character.  She evolves so beautifully.  You'll love her methodical style as she outsmarts and outmaneuvers the male character.  There's even a nice little plot twist that helps explain a question that will lurk in the minds of my more perceptive readers as they go through the book.  Yes, I think you're going to love it.  If you'd like a sneak preview of my new book, please email me at jmplays at yahoo dot com and I'll send you the first few parts.  

*****

August 22nd, 2010 --

I've been wanting to write (and complain) about the clips4sale.com website for a while now.  The main problem with the site is over-saturation.  I haven't bothered to count the number of sites, but I believe they now number more than 40,000.  That's a lot of shit to sift through.  The shrewd businesspeople behind clips4sale have done a good job of giving their customers multiple search tools.  Even so, the amount of sub par crap is enormous and that brings me to my other problem, which is that you can't rely on the top-selling clips since the general public has lousy taste.  The people at clips4sale would be wise to set up a rating system.  It would help separate the riffraff from the occasional good site.  

Here is the issue:  Most self-proclaimed femdoms, not including the ones I endorse on my links page, are ineffective at verbal humiliation.  In fact, most of them suck.  I could list dozens of examples for you, but then I’d make a bunch of enemies and that would be very stupid.  Generally, here’s a good rule of thumb: the hotter the girl, the more likely she is to suck ass at verbal humiliation.  I think the reason is that women who are both hot and intelligent do not involve themselves in this lifestyle.  That doesn't mean there aren't any (again, see my links), but it's a rarity.  That's one of many reasons I write about this shit.  My femdom archetype is always beautiful and devilishly clever. 

Rather than give you my top five all-time clips4sale videos, I'm going to focus on ballbusting videos since they tend to be more reliable, and I can offer five that are utterly fantastic.  So, here goes.  Once again, let me add I have no affiliation with any of these websites.

1 . Empress Cruel - Wash Your Filthy Cock (from Ballbusting Chicks) -- This personal favorite features the devastatingly hard-core German ballbusting queen Empress Cruel.  I happen to think she's lovely.  She's an older mistress, maybe in her 30s or even late 40s and still has a spectacular body.  This is a natural bitch who takes great joy in dominating males.  Many of her videos feature extremely hard-core, nut-rupturing kicks.  This one is slightly more tender.  Here, she chastises a male slave for not keeping his cock clean, and then she punishes him for getting an erection when he does wash his cock in front of her.  The scene takes place in a shower.  It has a nice air of realism.  Empress Cruel is wearing a black outfit with knee high black boots.  She delivers many punishing ball kicks throughout the film.  She also smacks the poor guy's penis around dozens and dozens of times, generating serious discomfort.  She also grabs and wrenches this guy's scrotum.  I should warn you that Empress Cruel speaks German and the film has no English subtitles.  But her commanding, feminine tone is more than enough.  I'd love a German-speaking reader to send me a translation of this video. 

2. Roskana's Black Heels (from Velvet Kick) -- Roskana is a gorgeous Russian ballbuster.  She has a tight, nubile body and she's extremely sexy in the way she punishes her lucky male slave.  At one point, she squeezes his nuts through a hair-straightener and then she bursts into laughter as he recoils in agony.  At times during the punishment, she also delivers little squeals and grunts.  She’s a feminine doll and knows exactly how to be the type of bitch we all love.  

3. Each girl gets 18 kicks (Sarah Serena and Jenna) Part C (from BratPrincess2) -- This is a terrific video.  It's a good ten minutes of a larger video shoot.  It features three typical young American women absolutely humiliating the shit out of a lucky guy.  The trash talk is quite good by most standards.  These girls really enjoy themselves.  First they have tied standing up, spread eagled.  Then, after he crumbles to the ground, they continue to batter his swollen ballbag with kick after kick after kick.  The three women take turns.  Some of the up-close shots of the male's bag getting impacted by feminine footwear are amongst the best I have ever had the pleasure of witnessing.  Sarah, in particular, is a commanding young lady, but Serena’s kicks at the end of the video are truly spectacular.  She uses her platform high heels to launch this guy’s genitals into orbit.  (On a side note: Brat Princess (I & II) went out of business for close to a year before coming back in the past few weeks.  It's one of the great mysteries of clips4sale.com -- why would a perennial top 50 site stop generating videos for long.  What happened to the girls?  There must be a good story behind that one). 

4. I'm a Testicles Kicker - Wild Brutal Kicking (from Spikey Step) -- 15 minutes of two-on-two nut-destroying action.  These two lovely European ladies speak fluent English with an accent.  And boy do they ever lambaste a pair of scrotums.  Both Lexia and Zita are dressed like ladies, not too slutty, just right.  They kick these men standing up.  They kick them doggy style.  They kick them while they are on their backs.  They also spend time slapping their faces.  It's a total destruction.  One slight issue is the  two bald male subjects.  These guys appear on so many Spikey Step videos that it has become silly.  Their nuts must be mangled beyond recognition.  Especially the shorter, bald guy.  He can't possibly procreate anymore.  Either way, this particular is an all-time great.  Lexia and Zita both clearly love inflicting punishment.  The joy with which they pummel these two scrotums is a joy to watch.

5. Casting CyndieMyst - Business Woman -Naked Ballkicking (from Spikey Step) -- This is a simple, no-nonsense ball destruction.  Cyndi is a little on the older side, but she has a terrific figure and her lower body looks absolutely dynamite outfitted in black stockings and black pumps.  The best part of this video is the final scene where she forces her sub to get on all fours before punting his naked, defeated ass out the door.  She makes him crawl forward with each kick.  A couple of times, the pain is so severe that he sprawls in agony.  So perfectly humiliating!

***** 

August 10th, 2010 --

In the past ten days I've written about 25,000 words of fiction on a new project.  Temporarily titled, "Teaching The Teacher," this latest novel will go down as the greatest forced-male chastity work I have ever produced. It occurred to me that although I have hit on this topic in the past, I have yet to produce a full-length novel with male chastity as the true driving force behind the female domination that ensues.  The setting of this novel is middle school.  No, it doesn't involve minors.  Rather, it involves a quirky young female teacher who puts a horny, philandering math teacher soundly in his place.  The lead female character in this novel is among my favorite creations.  Filled with exquisite psychological detail, the pacing of this novel feels spot-on for those who like a gradual, realistic build-up to some super intense femdom humiliation.  Not only that, but the structure is something completely new and, I think, quite innovative.  Expected release date: October 1st, 2010.

Now I want to talk about a word that appears frequently in my work. It is arguably one of the more controversial terms that I deal with.  I'm talking about the word loser. 

Why is it sexually gratifying to be called a loser by a dominant female?  I think it’s partly because such a casual dismissal makes the woman delivering the insult come off as commanding and decisive.  It implies that the sub is not worth her time or effort, and that he should consider himself lucky that the woman would take the time out of her successful life to dispatch him.  Mostly though, the term “loser” is at the very core of humiliation.  Nobody wants to be thought of as a loser, which is precisely what makes it so erotic. 

So many on-line femdoms use this word with regularity.  Unfortunately, many of them overuse it to the point where it becomes anti-climactic. As most experienced subs know, the vast majority of online doms don’t have a clue what they are doing. “Loser loser loser!” they  say again and again without ever getting into the why.  If only there were a certification course one could take before becoming an online domina.     

But hey, at least they aren’t dangerous.  The dangerous humiliatrixes are the ones who have talent, but seem hell-bent on financially destroying the truly weak among us.

While it's exciting to fantasize about being used, drained (financially and sexually), and then discarded, many talented online doms don't give a shit about the men they abuse.  To such women, men are a means to an end.  The attitude of not giving a shit about sub men is precisely what attracts sub men in the first place.  There’s a thin line between a fun game and sexual abuse.  If a male is allowing himself to be blackmailed or financially destroyed by a dominant woman, he should seek help.  It's very much like the addicted gambler who cannot walk away.  Sorry to sound like a douche, but don’t allow your life to be destroyed by a dom.  There are plenty of talented humiliatrixes who will give you the mind fuck you seek without emptying your fucking bank account.  

 *****

July 21st, 2010 – A longer entry than usual today.  

Why is it that so many dominant Women have tattoos?  This question has been gnawing at me. So much so that I posted a query on the new Fetlife website.  (Aside: Fetlife is one of the better femdom social networking site that I’ve come across.)  The gist of the feedback I got from the contributors at Fetlife -- many of them dominant Women themselves -- was that body ink and bdsm are both reflective of alternative lifestyles.  The type of person who might be interested in the transgressive nature of bdsm is more likely to “express themselves” through body art.   Sounds reasonable to me.

Personally I despise tattoos.  I don't understand the appeal.  I have always considered them juvenile and, in my eyes, they do nothing but hinder and obstruct Female beauty.  That said, I do think possible to have a meaningful tattoo.  Some of the respondents to my Fetlife query indicated that their tattoos are tributes to loved ones who are no longer with us.  This is certainly preferable to getting Yosemite Sam or Foghorn Leghorn tattooed on your ass just for the fuck of it.  But I still find the practice has a detrimental effect on beauty.  Only my opinion of course.  I can’t stand piercings either.  I suppose this means I’m guilty of objectifying Women.  You could argue it’s unfair for me to expect them to be physically pure and perfect, while at the same time wanting them to be cruel beings who get off on controlling, manipulating and humiliating me. It’s as though I expect a perfect exterior with a nasty core.  I don’t know what this says about me, or other like-minded submissive men.   Does this mean I hold Women to an unfair standard?  Perhaps.  Oh the irony.  

I'm reading the Melissa Febos book Whip Smart.  It's a memoir about her experience as a NYC dominatrix and her (debatably related) struggles with drug addiction.  Recently I had a chance to meet Miss Febos as she read passages from Whip Smart at a Cambridge, Massachusetts book store.  The crowd was lively and engaged.  I wish the Q&A session lasted longer than it did.  Miss Febos, who now teaches writing at SUNY Purchase, appears to be in her early 30s.  She's short, attractively plump, and projects a fierce confidence.  Her arms are heavily tattooed, which was my only gripe with her physical appearance.

Miss Febos read a passage from late in her book that hinted at a personal disdain for the power exchange / S&M, whatever you want to call it.  I asked her if she still felt this way.  She responded that her feelings about S&M had oscillated over the years and that she currently was fairly neutral on the subject.  It soon became clear to me that the Femdom chapter of her life is over and she has moved on to academia and writing -- serious adulthood I guess you could call it.  Febos was a pro domme for the money, and because it fed her narcissistic inclinations (being a domme was something she could brag about at parties).  I'm not judging her, as there's much more to her character than this, but it takes a narcissist to know one.  

I'm 40% into Whip Smart.  To my delight, it appears Miss Febos worked at the same dungeon that I used to frequent when I lived in NYC from 1998 to 2002.  I don't remember seeing her there, as I think she was arriving just as I was leaving.  This fact makes the book especially interesting to me, as I try to figure out which characters in her book might I have sessioned with.  Thus far, I'm finding it quite enjoyable.  I will post my full thoughts on the book as soon as I'm finished reading it.  Initially it strikes me as something deeper than what we usually get when dominant Women describe their experiences with the profession.

*****

July 1, 2010 --Ball Sprawl & Other Tales is now available at Lulu.com. Here is the direct link:

  http://www.lulu.com/product/ebook/ball-sprawl-and-other-tales/11603282.  

Please cut the link and paste it in your browser. I'm obviously too idiotic (or lazy) to figure out how to post a hyperlink.  In all honesty, I believe this is a terrific collection of short stories.  You could do a lot worse with your $11.95.  If you have enjoyed anything I've written in the past, you will surely enjoy some, if not all of these stories.  They are highly creative, I think, and they were a joy to write. 

Speaking of stories, I'd like to share a personal anecdote.  This relates to my Femdom influences and speaks to how I became so passionate about Female Domination.

Back in 1996, when I ventured into life after college, I discovered the Internet (I have always been a laggard when it comes to technology).  At the time, I worked for a small import/export operation and had an entire office to myself.  It was then that I first began to explore the Femdom resources available on the Internet.  I recall discovering Dr. Phil's seminal 13-part story "Shame On Your Mr. Hyde."  I recall stumbling upon Mule's Femdom Barnyard.  I've never really been a fan of the title since I don't think it does Mule justice.  He's not into beastiality or anything like that (if you're into beastiality, more power to you, but it's not my thing).  Mule is one of the true pioneers of Femdom on the web.  He wrote some terrific stories (most notably "Jessica" and "The Domination of Jason") and has always been a strong, independent voice when it comes to Female Domination.  

One of Mule's early associates was an individual named Estragon.  I think Estragon passed away some time ago -- Mule once noted this on his website.  Anyway, Estragon is the most fascinating Femdom writer I have ever come across. The term "unique" is overused in our society, but Estragon deserved the moniker.  What made Estragon different?  Estragon was a true Femdom philosopher, a genuine deep thinker.  His writings were cerebral and sought to explore the psychology behind female domination, i.e., what makes Women so inherently sexually powerful.  He liked to reflect on the female body and how a Woman could control a man by her mere presence, through no effort on her behalf.  That's an incredibly erotic notion IMO because it speaks to the idea of natural female supremacy.  I have always strongly identified with this idea and have sought to integrate it into my writing.  Estragon loved to explore a young Woman's initial innocence, and then her discovery of power, a discovery that, according to Estragon, was  inevitable and driven by nature.  It was as if young Women were programmed by evolution to control and subjugate men.  Estragon felt it was only a matter of time before young Women realized the power they held between their thighs.  He believed young Women took great joy in controlling mankind by controlling what existed between man's thighs.  Estragon's Female archetype was downright amused by the sexual power they hold over men.  But at the same time, they considered it their birthright.  Once the Estragon Female discovered their power, they became completely aloof in their dealings with men.  To the Estragon Female, the vagina is a source of immense pride and dignity, while the penis is a source of embarrassment and a lack of self-control.

You can find Estragon's work at alt sex stories text repository (www.asstr.org) among other places.  In my experience, it is some of the most thought provoking and erotic Femdom writing ever put into print.

***** 

June 21, 2010 – 

Greetings.  Hope you are well.  I’m within two weeks of publishing my short story collection.  Right now I’m deep into the editing process, fixing the typos and taking a hard look at the dialogue, which I’ve always felt was my strength as a writer.  I try to imagine I am there, facing the Woman as she delivers her insulting comments.  I try to imagine the inflection of her voice, and the way she might subtly flip her head back, or push her hair away from her forehead.  I try to make sure her line doesn’t sound contrived and that it stays true to her character.  Is she a brash, vicious humiliatrix?  Or is she more of the subtle, feminine type whose words are carefully chosen and delivered in nuanced fashion?  Is she a less experienced girl who is still discovering her power and marveling at her ability to dominate men, or is she a completely realized Woman who know she holds all the power in the world between her thighs and takes great pleasure in pushing all the right buttons?  My short story collection contains all different types of women, but the end result is always the same -- Female victory and male sexual humiliation.  In fact, I was tempted to name the publication "Female Victory," but I decided that was a stupid title. 

BTW, if any of you see people who have taken my work and published it as their own, please let me know.  I already found someone doing this recently.  If the tip turns out to be valid, I will give you one of my novels as a token of thanks.  I know it isn't much, but it's the best I can do.  And just think of the personal pride you can take in sticking it to some plagiarizing shit-heel.   


*****
May 25, 2010 -- 

Now for a personal note -- Let's title this entry "Drugs and Creativity."  I recently decided I was going to go a month without smoking pot and drinking alcoholic beverages.  My experiment began on May 1st. I've almost made it.  To give you some perspective, I've smoked weed since I was maybe 17.  I used to smoke from a bong several times per day.  As I "grew up," my usage became more selective.  In the past few years, as I've reached the early stages of middle age, it's been more like one good pull five times per week.  As for the booze, for years I'm a fairly heavy drinker, or a functional alcoholic, whichever you prefer.  When I'm bored I attend local Alcholics Anonymous meetings, though I find that I don't identify with the members who talk about how one drink would kill them.
My decision to stop drinking and smoking pot is somewhat of an experiment.  I wanted to prove to myself I can go a month (a fairly extended unit of time, as we get maybe 1,000 of these in our lives if we're lucky) without the use of mood-enhancing substances.  I also felt as though the hangovers have been increasingly difficult to cope with and the weed has been making me paranoid. For that reason, it came as somewhat of a relief to stop for a while.
What does this have to do with my writing?  Well, as some of you might know, marijuana can have a stimulating effect on the libido, not to mention one's creative juices.  Some of my best femdom writing has taken place under the influence.  I find the judicious use of marijuana can slow me down and make me ponder each sentence, each word I type.  This can have a positive affect, as it forces me to dig deeper and envision scenarios and exchanges that I otherwise might not have conjured up.  Dig deeper.  I seem to recall my freshman year english professor telling me I needed to do this right after she handed me another B+ on a term paper.  Ironically, back then I smoked so much that I should have been able to dig to China.
In any case, I'm hoping the creative spark returns soon.  I have completed the drafts of five delicious new short stories and I intend to write two more.  Thanks to the folks who sent me ideas.  If you have any intriguing ideas, please send them my way.  There's still time.
Lastly, if you're a kid who stumbled upon this website, don't do drugs, especially the strong stuff like heroin and cocaine.  That shit is bad news. 
*****
May 16, 2010 -- 

I'm making steady progress on my first collection of short stories.  While I think my latest novels have been enjoyable to write, it's nice to have a change of pace.  With short stories, I'm giving myself an opportunity to throw a few change-ups.  I've written my first futuristic story, titled "2222" and that was a lot of fun.  I've also written a few other interesting tales, including the title story "Ball Sprawl," about a dedicated femdom photographer, which I think is a thrilling read.  I also might throw in a male-dom story for good measure.  I'm hoping to release this late June / early July.  Please email me ideas you might have for a short story @ jmplays at yahoo dot com.  If I use your idea, you'll get a free copy of "Ball Sprawl & Other Tales."  
*****
April 25, 2010 -- 

I'm happy to announce that I've completed Melanie The Matchmaker. At 39,500 words, it's my longest femdom novel to date. Those of you who enjoy the forced feminization theme will really enjoy this one. It's quite comprehensive. The Women in this novel are completely ruthless -- they will stop at nothing to make sure the male "protagonist" gets his just desserts. And boy does he ever!
NEXT PROJECT: I'm working on a short story collection. Please email me requests at jmplays@yahoo.com -- I want to be responsive to my readers' fantasies, and I'm always looking for new ideas.
*****
April 17, 2010 --

Finally, I'm building momentum toward the completion of Melanie The Matchmaker. I'm in the editing phase now. This one is particularly vicious. The second half of the novel is heavy on forced feminization. This is a subject that I have written about from time to time, but maybe not in such vivid detail. I think it should be posted by May 1st. Hope you enjoy. I also have begun work on a short story collection. I recently wrote a terrific little story that I titled "Ball Sprawl," and I think that will be the title of my short story collection. I'm definitely due for a cheeky title and I can't think of anything better than Ball Sprawl. I suspect you know what the story is about. Believe it or not, I think it's an exciting, fresh take on one of my favorite topics. IF YOU HAVE IDEAS for a short story that you would like me to consider, email me at jmplays@yahoo.com -- I'm always interested in new ideas to keep the gears churning. If I use the idea, I'll send you a free copy of Ball Sprawl when it is published.
*****
April 5, 2010 --

March 14, 2010 -- 

Greetings.  Still working on Melanie The Matchmaker and shooting for an early April release date.  To be honest, I've had writers block the last couple of weeks.  When that happens, rather than write uninspired crap, I put the project aside until I get the urge to go back.  I've completed 27,000 words.  This one will end up being fairly long by my standards.  A couple of climactic scenes still remain.  As I've said before, this one is vicious and pulls no punches.  Though there's nothing overtly violent, by the end of the novel the "protagonist" gets turned into something much less than a man. I was thinking about one of my favorite Femdom topics -- verbal humiliation, and I came up with a silly acronym that describes the things I shoot for when I write femdom dialogue.  I'll call it the CAAJ model of verbal humiliation:
Confidence
Assertiveness
Aloofness
Joy
Put them all together and you've got CAAJ.  It sounds like a granola mix, or maybe a designer drug.
Confidence -- A woman who is verbally humiliating a man must have confidence in herself, in her superiority, and in her inherent power as a female.  She knows she's in control of the situation and that she's the more intelligent, evolved being.  In her world, femdom is reality.  It's not a game.  The male is her lackey, her puppet, her circus animal.  Often times, I like to show the evolution of a woman's confidence, the discovery of power, to quote Estragon.
Assertiveness -- I mean that a woman must have a certain determination.  She can't be satisfied with doing anything less than worming her way deep into the male's brain and exploiting him in such a way that fully satisfies her substantial needs.  The goal for the woman, as always, is intense psychological humiliation.  This can be slightly tricky because it's a hand that can be overplayed.  If a woman becomes overly assertive, she can come off as over-the-top and lacking of certain important aspects of femininity, which to me include self-control, poise, and gracefulness.
Aloofness -- Here I'm expanding on the idea of poise.  It's the deep understanding that she is totally superior, so that it's important that she always talk down to the male.  Although they both speak the same language, the woman is playing the role of teacher, mother, mentor, figure of authority.  This is true even if the woman is younger than the male, which in my novels she so often is.  A good way to show this is in scenes involving more than one woman.  The women speak to each other as equals.  Contrasting this with the way the woman speaks to a lowly male makes for hot dialogue.
Joy -- My femdom architype loves what she does.  Otherwise, why should she bother?  At times, she can pretend she's doing it out of a sense of duty, but in reality dominating and humiliating males is an activity that makes her feel complete.  There's a deep feeling of personal satisfaction that goes along with dominating men.  She loves the fact that his body is totally exposed, that his penis and balls are these hilarious toys that she can use against him, while she is clothed, comfortable, and fully dignified.  I love the imagery of a smiling woman who has a male over her knee, or is in the process of kicking his balls.  A woman might even gain sexual satisfaction out of this, but it's a subtle sexual satisfaction.  She might become slightly moist but only in a lubricatory sense.  She never gets wet.  (I guess lubricatory isn't an official word, but I don't give a damn.)

*****
February 27, 2010 -- 

The Prototype.  The band Outkast has a cool song where Andre 3000 sings about his prototypical girl.  I don't know if it's called "The Prototype" or not, but I digress.  It's got me thinking about what would be the perfect Femdom in this messed up world we live in.  Yesterday I was working out in the gym and there was only one other person in the room -- this gorgeous, slender blonde bouncing up and down on the eliptical machine.  She wore these tight, black workout pants and a little white tank top.   I enjoy the Female form in many different shapes and sizes but I have always gravitated toward thin, petite blondes.  Anyway, this girl was a total ice princess.  You know the type.  She had this prudish aura.  When she was finished working out, she snuck behind me, rather than in front of me, on her way to the exit.  Probably knew I wanted to study her ass.  She had this long, perfectly straight hair and a pretty face with soft, delicate features, and narrow wrists.  I'm guessing she was in her mid 20s.  

When I encounter Women such as her, it always gets my fantasy gears turning.  What if I offered her $50 to kick me in the nuts, no strings attached?  And what if, after being initially appalled with the offer, she thought about it and said, "Sure, why not?"  Then, after kicking me in the nuts and sending me sprawling, what if she went back to completing her workout as if nothing had happened?  Then, what if, upon completing her workout she told me that if I paid her more money she would take me back to her apartment and make me remove my clothing.  That way, she'd say, she could really teach me a lesson.  Besides, she would say, I think I'll enjoy teaching a pervert like you about respecting young Women like me.  

That's how my stories get started.  Anyway, right now I have no interest in writing about gym girl.  I've been cranking away at Melanie The Matchmaker.  It promises to be my most comprehensive Femdom novel to date.  I've been pulling out all the stops for this one.  It's just plain nasty.  And it remains on target for an early April publishing date.  

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February 14, 2010 --

 Valentine's Day.  It's the classic manufactured holiday, courtesy of corporate America.  Ah well, it's a good excuse to get together with your spouse / friend / playmate and have some intimate relations, whatever that might entail...I think I've finally nailed down the plot for my new novel.  The working title is "Melanie The Matchmaker" and it will feature cfnm humiliation, along with a sissy baby theme later in the book.  My intent is to start this one out subtly, and then make it really nasty at the end.  I've only covered the sissy baby theme in one other work of fiction.  That was in my third novel, "The Johnsons."  But I think it's a good time to dig much deeper.  Hoping to get this one out there by early April, depending upon how some other projects go.  (Oh, and to clarify, the sissy baby theme will only involve adults.  As always, no minors will be involved.)

I tend to write in spurts (pun intended).  I've learned there's no point in forcing yourself to write if you don't feel inspired.  I can go days or weeks without writing a word of femdom, but then suddenly I'll come up with an idea and write my ass off for a week straight.  Often times, my inspiration comes from interaction with women in the real world.  I'll see a woman who carries herself with grace and aloofness, and the gears will start turning.  That's how I came up with the idea for my last book, "Two Leashes."  I was actually reading this book again yesterday and, forgive the self promotion, it's sizzling.  For the freeloaders among you, I sent chapters 2 and 3 to bdsmlibrary.com yesterday and I hope they will post it soon.  If you just want to buy the whole novel, go to www.lulu.com/jmplays and it's the first book on top.  Sorry for the silly cover featuring the goofy-looking white Boxer -- it's tough finding good femdom cover art -- but the prose is really terrific in spots.  I put my heart into it.  There are several femdom moments in this story that are absolutely priceless.  The verbal humiliation is second to none, and the two female characters are superb.

When I first started writing femdom, I figured I'd write a book or two.  But as I got going, I began to realize that there were a million different angles on this exciting form of human sexuality.  Every time I think I might be "done" with the genre, new themes pop into my head.  I wouldn't keep writing if I felt I had exhausted all the angles.  Women come in so many different sizes, shapes and flavors.  Being able to write about real Dominant Females taking great satisfaction in humiliating men is a great joy, and if I ever feel like it's a chore I'll stop immediately.  

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January 21, 2010 --

Ballbusting.  Ah, a subject near and dear to my heart.  There is something just so right about a clothed woman kicking a nude guy in his nutsack.  And yes, I definitely think ballbusting is best when the woman is wearing clothing and the guy is totally exposed (CFNM).  A lot of men prefer women dressed in leather or dressed in slutty attire.  I don't really get this at all.  I prefer the woman to be dressed in natural everyday clothes.  Business attire is especially enjoyable.  The psychological side of a woman retaining her dignity and privacy in a skirt, leisure pants, a blouse, high heels, or boots, make-up, etc, while the male and his silly anatomy is lewdly exposed.  Ah, it just feels so right.  But it's not just psychological -- it has to do with the imagery of female footwear making solid contact with the scrotum and causing balls and penis to go flying.  The way a woman's exquisite lower body flexes so beautifully as she delivers a punishing and humiliating kick to a groin.  Next time you watch a ballbusting video, take the time to put it on super slo-mo and really study each individual frame at the point of impact.  Watch the muscles on the woman's leg, the way they flex as she throttles her male subject's scrotum.  Study the pleased look on her face.  And of course, study the way the guy's genitalia violently contorts at the point of impact.  Watch the way the guy's legs and hands recoil as he realizes he's been kicked right where it counts.  It's so erotic!  

This is a perfect segue for me to describe my new short story.  It's titled "A Proper Bulbing" and it's about a beautiful young woman who takes ballbusting very seriously.  I'll be posting it soon on several websites, like bdsmlibrary.com and ballbustingforums.com.  

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January 17, 2010 --
Why do I love Femdom so much?  Ah, the million dollar question.  Ask any submissive guy and he'll likely struggle to answer this question.  For me it boils down to a feeling of safety.  Our earliest days were spent under the care of an authoritative, all powerful female presence.  For that reason, I have always felt totally safe when fantasizing about or playing with dominant women.  The idea of being controlled by our sexual impulses also plays into it.  It's the notion that men, unlike Women, can't hide their sexual arousal and an erection can be the source of so much embarrassment.

More on this subject later.  One hopes I can figure out how to get a discussion board going and we can flesh it out a bit better than that.  
Let's talk a little bit about spanking, shall we?  There's something that feels just so right about a clothed Woman blistering a male's ass thereby teaching him a humiliating lesson he is not likely to ever forget. 
 
Spanking is similar to ballbusting in that both involve the physical domination of a male by a (presumably) superior female.  Ballbusting is more emasculating because it involves direct punishment of male sex organs.  Spanking is also emasculating, but in a slightly different way.  Rather than a direct assault on what makes a male a male, spanking can be viewed as an assault on a male's adulthood, his maturity or lack thereof.  Although corporal punishment of children has become frowned upon by modern society (with good reason, IMO), many of us, myself included, were spanked when we were children.  Thus, the spanking of a mature adult male by a mature adult Woman represents a wonderful expression of Female authority.
 
Okay, before I put you to sleep, let me discuss some typical features of a spanking scene.
 
My #1 preference by far is OTK spanking.  I absolutely love the imagery of a fully clothed Woman taking the male over her lap.  The Woman sits composed and comfortable in a chair.  She wears sensible feminine attire.  The male, on the other hand, has his ass up in the air and his head down toward the floor.  His world is quite literally being turned upside down.  I also enjoy it when the Woman pins the male's arm behind his back.  This makes it so the male cannot escape punishment even if he wants to.  I prefer the use of a hairbrush.  A paddle, or other wooden object is also quite suitable, but the hairbrush is a common household item and not necessarily a bdsm "toy."  Therefore it represents the Woman using what is convenient, rather than resorting to something unusual.  Plus a hairbrush hurts like a mutherfucker.
 
I love the idea of a woman inflicting real, enduring pain on the male's backside.  It is best when the Woman takes great pride and joy in administering the punishment.  The male, on the other hand, might initially think a spanking is no big deal.  Maybe the Woman starts with her hand and the pain is manageable.  But when she switches to the hairbrush, the pain soon becomes unmanageable.  The male begins to feel real physical pain, and with it comes emotional pain.  He begins to fight it.  His legs begin to kick as his flight instinct kicks in.  But he's like a gerbil on a treadmill.  He can't get anywhere.  As his ass gets bruised and enflamed, each spank hurts more and more.  And the spanks continue to rain down with cruel regularity, the male becomes increasingly desperate.  He begins to beg the Woman to stop.  He tells her he learned his lesson, that he'll try to change, that he'll obey her commands.  But the Woman doesn't care.  She has a very specific goal in mind.  She wants to reduce the male to deep sobs.  This is another aspect of spanking that differs from ballbusting.  My male characters never cry, no matter how much blunt trauma is delivered to their testicles.  They always cry after a good, hard OTK spanking.  His deep sobs are a stark contrast to the victorious Female's satisfied smile.  His sobs are partly from the pain, but mostly due to the realization that he's been soundly defeated.  His world has been effectively shatterd by the Female and he is left with a deep, enduring respect for the Female.  A part of him simply cannot comprehend what has taken place and this leads him to cry even harder as he recalls the humiliating details of his comeuppance.  Every good spanking should end with the male profusely thanking the Female for the lesson.
 
*My new novel is slowly coming together.  I hit a little snag, but it should be out there by the end of April. 

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My Influences


Femdom Writers:
Dr. Phil
Mule
adietreich

Mainstream Writers:
John Steinbeck
John Irving
EL Doctorow
Steven King
Jonathan Franzen
Charles Bukowski
Ted Weesner
Murakami
TC Boyle

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